Decisions… part 38

Chapter 12: A Talk and His Choice

I smile, and hug him tight. He wipes the tear that I didn't know was rolling down my cheek, and smiles, "You didn't answer my question, Little Mex."
"Life is crazy and hard and you know that.", was all I said, and he frowned, "It never goes the way you want it to, it never really makes sense, and it's starting to sound like it's not worth it."

"Let me guess, Kylie got to you."

"She did. Wait, did she talk to you too?!?!", I asked, and he nodded.
"Yes. She tried to convince me- which she failed by the way- to leave life and everyone behind because if I decided to wake up it would be like sh*t. I told her that she could try all she wanted, but I wasn't going to leave Sarah, my parents, everyone behind.", he said, sitting down next to me, not afraid of getting his white clothes like mine filled with dirt. He picks up a small grayish pebble and starts fiddling with it, "Then she said, well yelled angrily, that the future is going to be hard. But there was one thing she didn't want to understand-"
"That the future changes.", I mumbled, and he faintly smiles. 
"The future. Your future. You make it what you want. If you don't like it, change it. Life is hard, everyone knows that, but it's the good things and good people in it that make it all worth the risk.", he said, and threw the pebble to a tree, "Ron, what happened in your past, was that exactly, your past. You shouldn't hold on to it."
I grit my teeth, great he was making me feel guilty. He was right though, but Kylie was too. And now I really don't know what to do anymore. Maybe I'll never wake up but I'll never die, I'll probably stay in the endless sleep that is a coma.  
"Riley, tell me what to do.", I said in frustration, "What should I do?!?! Tell me. Please. Just tell me what to choose."
"Rons, I can't tell you what you should or shouldn't do, that's up to you. I know what I want.", he said looking at the horizon, "And that's living. I do hope you choose to live though, because it wouldn't be the same without you, Ronnie."
My anger and hatred fade as I look into the horizon, wondering what I should do. Life is always hard. But maybe, just maybe, it was worth it. I sigh as Riley stands up and extends his hand. I take it, and he gives me one last hug, for now, probably. 
"My time is up, I better get going.", he said, letting me go, "I hope you make the right choice. See you, Little Mex."
"Bye Riley.", I said, "Let's just see what happens."
He sighs, kisses my forehead like one of my brothers would do, and we part ways.