How do you know if you really love someone? How do you know if it’s just a crush or something more, when you had never had a crush on anyone? When the only ones you knew you loved were your family. How does one work these things out? Would you be able to leave your family to go in search of someone even if you didn’t know if you loved them or not?
Chapter One- Evaporated.
I groaned and rolled over burying my face in my pillow when I heard the quiet creak of my bedroom door being opened.
“Rise and shine sleepy head,” Alice sang as she flung open my wardrobe and started searching through all my clothes.
“Go away” I muttered grabbing another pillow and shoving it over my head.
“Those colors really don’t match,” she said to herself. “Shame though. Would be fine if this was a lighter blue. Hm. Maybe Rose might have something.” I tuned out from Alice’s extremely irritating chatter and tried to fall back asleep.
I really don’t see how she can be so bright and bubbly all the time.
Sure I was excited and all. It was my first day of school after all.
For four years Grandma-and Grandpa Cullen when he was home- had home schooled me, but then Rose had a bit of… well I suppose you could call it an accident. And this accident had very inconveniently happened in the middle of the main street of the last town we had lived in.
This is how it happened. Rose, Grandma and I had been out grocery shopping. We were in the supermarket when Rose realized she had left her purse in the car, so she went out to get it.
It didn’t help that she was already in a bad mood for some reason and then when she realized she had left her purse at home she got even more pissed. She slammed the car door shut a little too hard causing it to buckle in on itself and all the widows to shatter. There were about five people who witnessed this, -including her English teacher Mr. Craig- but in only a couple of hours almost the whole town had heard about Rosalie Hale’s supposed super human strength.
We were gone in two days.
Everyone had decided I knew enough to be able to start school now-and I had stopped growing-, so mum, dad, aunt Ali, aunt Rose, uncle Em, uncle Jazz and I had enrolled at the local high school three weeks ago when we had arrived at the small town of Fairbanks Alaska.
Today was first day of term two as well as my first day at a proper school.
Up until this morning I had been really excited and had annoyed the s*** out of everyone by declaring my excitement to all of my family over and over. Last night it took me forever to get to sleep and now I was really wishing I had gone to bed earlier to allow myself more time to fall asleep, because I really wasn’t used to getting up this early.
“Getupgetupgetup,” Alice said wrenching the pillows away from my head and flinging them to the other side of my room when I made a grab for them.
“Go away,” I muttered again, “I’m sleeping.”
“We already let you sleep in Ness and now it’s time to get up. And hurry up you only have half an hour to get ready.”
“I don’t care if I’m late,” I sighed. It felt as though my excitement had evaporated.
“I didn’t want it to come down to this but I suppose I have no choice.”
“What?” I asked confused.
“This,” she flung my doona back and pounced on me, pinning my arms under me, and smothered my face with kisses.
“Ugh,” I mumbled trying to get my arms free.
She got off me and looked at me expectantly,” Come on then,” she said suddenly serious.
“Fine,” I yawned dragging myself out of my incredibly warm and comfortable queen sized bed.
“Get dressed,” she said dropping a pair of dark blue skinny leg jeans and black high heel boots that reached just bellow my knees.
“I’ll be back,” Alice said -doing an almost prefect imitation of Arnold Schwarzenegger- and ran out of my room as I reached into my top draw for clean underwear and socks.
Alice came back in as I was doing up my bra with a light blue blouse in hand. She sat it on my bed with the other things and walked back out.
I finished getting dressed then clomped unhappily down the stairs. God it was frustrating being so graceful. No matter how hard I tried I couldn’t not be graceful. Emmett even said sometimes I was more graceful than Alice, -I think he was joking- that’s hard to believe though. Alice is always prancing about everywhere like a… oh I don’t know. Like a something that’s really graceful.
“Good morning sweet hear,” mum said catching me up in her up in her stone mebrace when I reached the bottom of the stairs and kissing me lightly on the head.
“Hey honey,” dad said coming over and wrapping his long arms around both of us.
“Morning mum, dad.”
“You hungry Ness?” Rosalie called from the kitchen.
“Yeah kinda,” I pulled out of the hug and headed off toward the kitchen.
“How’s it going brat?” Emmett asked ruffling my hair as I walked past. “Don’t look as excited anymore.”
“I’m not,” I muttered fixing my hair.
“And why’s that?”
“It’s too early,” I yawned again.
He chuckled. ”Not really.”
“Easy for you to say,” I grumbled pulling up a seat at the kitchen table.
“Smile,” Grandma chirped. A blinding flash followed.
“Esme,” She corrected. “Grandma makes me feel old.”
“You are old,” Emmett laughed.
“Watch it,” she joked,” if your not careful you’ll end up living outside.”
“Esme please no photo’s,” I grinned.
“One more.” I smiled and she snapped another photo.
I was supposed to call grandma and grandpa by their first names, and my aunts and uncles wanted me to cut out the aunt and uncle part from their names. I was also working on calling mum and dad by their first names because it would sound weird to other people if I called them mum and dad at school.
“Hurry up lil sis,” Emmett grinned. He was leaning up against da… Edward’s new Volvo. This one was dark blue.
He had had to get a new one after I accidentally wrapped his old silver Volvo around a tree. It wasn’t technically my fault though it was Emmett’s. After all he was the one who practically forced me race him-even if I kinda wanted to-.
Well I was in Edwards Volvo, he was going to take his jeep but I told him I wouldn’t race if he did, so he took Rosalie’s BMW instead.
Everything was cool until Emmett decided to make it more exciting by trying to push me off the road and out of his way; he put a massive dent in the passenger side of Rosalie’s door and knocked me off the road straight into the path of an oncoming tree. I had to mangle the car further to get myself out, and if I were human I would have been killed, but as it was I didn’t have a scratch on me.
Emmett thought it was hilarious until we got home. Rose all but bit his head off when she saw the dent. She was crabbier than Edward even though his car was well and truly dead. Emmett took most of the blame, which was fine with me.
“Don’t forget your jacket,” mum said just behind me and interrupting my thoughts.
“Aw mum,” I groaned. “It’s not even cold though.”
“Whatever,” I snatched my jacket from her and slid into the backseat of Edward’s car.
Our story as usual was that Dr. Cullen his wife and adopted children had moved o town for a fresh start. Rosalie and Japer remained the Hale twins, mum was Isabella Masen and Alice, Emmett, Edward and I were the Cullen siblings.
It was strange. In a way my parents were my brother and sister and my grandparents were my parents.
There was a surprising amount of people gathered around as we pulled into the Fairbanks high school student car park searching for an empty space.
We didn’t stand out too much yet. Only a few people watched as Edward’s Volvo slid smoothly into an empty spot next to an old white Datsun Ute. But at the moment they were only staring at the cars, they couldn’t yet see the people inside them thanks to the heavily tinted windows.
Alice’s Porsche had most of the eyes trained on it. Edward had tried and tried to talk her out of taking her car but she’d insisted and he had reluctantly given in.
We waited while Alice pulled into the spare spot next to the one where we had just parked, and watched as a few more heads turned, not many. Just a couple.
I could see why people weren’t that interested. There were a few expensive cars scattered around the car park. A dirty black Mercedes and a silver BMW were the only ones I could identify.
“Ready?” Edward asked turning to look at me.
Ready as I’ll ever be, I thought to him.
He smiled at me. “Lets go then.” He opened his door as did Bella who was in the front passenger seat, Rose who was on my left, Emmett to my right, and Alice and Jasper in Alice’s Porsche.
“My god,” someone whispered as we stepped out of the cars.
“Look at them.” Slowly every head turned until every eye was on the seven of us.
“Ugh,” Edward groaned.
“What,” Emmett asked him as we made our way to the school office.
“That boy,” he nodded towards a tall skinny boy standing under a tree near the edge of the car park with his eyes shut and his hands clasped together in front of his face, “thinks we’re angels that god sent to protect him from the world.”
“Weirdo,” Rose snorted.
I could feel the eyes of the small crowd that had gathered boring into my back as I walked. God I really can’t wait for the staring to stop, because it was already getting old and a little creepy. Dad said the longest it had ever lasted was about two and a half months; I really hoped that wasn’t this case this time round.
Sure I kinda did like the attention but this was a bit too much for my liking. I bet aunt Rose lapped up the compliments every time.
Dad chuckled as he heard my thoughts.
I put my hand on his arm and showed him the massive grin that was on her face at the moment, he chuckled again.
“So are you enjoying school?” Sam the overly friendly boy from my math’s class asked as he followed me like a little lost dog. Why wouldn’t he just leave me alone?
“It’s ok,” I replied speeding up so he was almost running to keep up.
Did I have to physically tell him to leave me alone or something? Any normal guy would get the message. Wouldn’t they? I didn’t have much experience with males, well normal ones anyway. And trust me when I say the ones I do have experience with a far far from normal.
“Um the cafs back that way,” Sam said trotting alongside me.
“I’m looking for the toilets,” I said dodging a group of people going the opposite way to us.
“She’s hot,” one of the guys in the group said, following me with his eyes as they passed.
“Yeah. What’s Shepard doing with her though?” They looked like the schools popular group.
“They’re here,” Sam beamed. Ugh he was irritating.
“Thanks,” I mumbled pushing the ladies toilet door open. “I’ll find my way to the caf in a minute thanks,” I said when he didn’t budge.
“Ok.” I let the door swing shut behind me.
Oh great. I didn’t even consider that there might be others in here. I was just trying to get rid of Sam. There were about five other girls in the toilets; three of them were gathered in front of one of the two mirrors fixing their hair, and the other two were in the far corner talking to someone on a small Nokia.
Once again all the heads in the room turned as I walked in, their eyes following me as I drifted over to the free mirror- trying my hardest to ignore them all- and started reapplying my makeup.
“Watch your boyfriends girls,” one of the three in front of the mirror – a blonde with long curly hair up in a ponytail- snickered.
“Slut,” one of her friends- another blonde but with straight shoulder length hair that she was braiding- muttered.
“Excuse me?” I spun around to face them without thinking.
“What?” She asked looking totally freaked for some reason.
“What did you jus call me?” I demanded. Oh my god. Why couldn’t I keep my mouth shut? I was like that girl in that book Queen of Babble that I read last year that kept saying things before she could stop herself and then screwing everything up because of her big mouth.
N. Nothing,” she stuttered. She was looking extremely pale. Was I really that scary?
“Whatever,” I collected my makeup and stalked out.
“Hey,” Sam said coming up behind me – as I went in search of the cafeteria- and scaring the s*** out of me. I grunted –a very unladylike sound- at him and kept walking.
I really needed to be more careful from now on. I shouldn’t have said anything to that girl but I couldn’t help it. It just came out.
When we reached the cafeteria doors I stopped dead and listened to the conversations going on on the other side of the doors; most of them were about my family and I, by the sound of it all of my family was already seated together at a table.
“They’re so quiet.”
“My god he’s dreamy.”
“Look at the rack on that thing!” Um… Completely different topic I think. I hope.
“Adopted? All of the?”
“Oh. Where’s the other one?”
“Dunno. She’s in my bio class though.”
It took me a few seconds that that last question had been directed at me, that it wasn’t part of one of the questions I’d been listening to.
“Um yeah I’m fine,” I said reaching for the door handle.
“You sure?” Sam reached out and laid his hand over mine.
I wrenched my hand out of the way- maybe a bit too fast- as I felt the burning in my throat.
“I’m fine,” I growled opening the door and pushing past him roughly.
I located my family at a table near the other end of the room and headed straight for them trying to avoid all the curious eyes, and also trying to remain walking at human pace.
I didn’t bother getting any food because I knew there would be plenty to spare at out table.
I sighed as I sunk into the empty sat next to Emmett and grabbed an apple off the tray sitting on the table in front of him.
“You get lost or something Ness?” He teased as I sunk my razor sharp teeth into the poor defenseless apple.
“I went to the toilet,” I said, my mouth full.
”Him,” Emmett said nodding towards the food line. It wasn’t hard to work out who he was talking about. Sam Shepard was staring at me and whispering to one of his nerdy friends- Marcus Fisher if I remember correctly-.
“Yeah I think she really likes me,” Sam was saying.
“But she’s giving you a death stare,” Marcus replied glancing warily at me.
Death stare? Oops. Poor kids probably scared shittless.
“Now now Nessie no death stares,” Jasper said reaching across the table and patting me on the cheek. “Your going to make him dirty his pants.”
“She is pretty terrifying isn’t she,” Edward agreed.
“He wont talk to you again if you look at him like that,” Alice said stealing the lid from the bottle of water I was drinking and twirled it on the end of her pinky.
“Good idea,” I said with mock excitement. “I can just glare at him and he won’t come near me again.”
“Give it a go,” Emmett suggested.
I turned back to the line where he was still standing and gave him the scariest look I could.
“She makes me shake in my boots,” Alice said shivering delicately.
Sam hadn’t turned yet; he was still talking to his friends. Maybe I should ease up a bit on the intensity of my glare. I was only aiming to scare him enough to leave me alone, not give him a heart attack.
“Man really really don’t think she likes you.” At least someone was smart enough to get it.
I watched dumbfounded as Sam looked at me again, smiled, told his friends to follow, left the line and started walking towards our table.
“Oh great,” I moaned burying my face in my hands. “It had the exact opposite effect.”
“Hey Renesmee,” Sam- all of his friends were still in line staring at him with their mouths hanging open, - Said enthusiastically.
“Sam,” he corrected.
“I was just wondering if you would like to come to the end of year dance with me?” Everyone at my table had to try to hold in their laughter. They all succeeded; with the exception of Emmett.
“What?” Sam demanded him. “You don’t think I’m good enough for her? Well I'm sorry if I'm not as perfect as all of you. I’m sorry if I'm not popular. I'm sorry if I have a pimple on my ass. I'm sorry if…” He drifted off. “Did I just say that?” He gathered from our expressions that he had and started going redder than a tomato. “Well anyway will you go with me?”
”Its like right at the end of the year though,” I replied quickly thinking of excuses. “I'm not really thinking that far ahead, sorry,” that would have to do.
“Oh ok.” He didn’t even look upset; he just turned to Alice and said, “your Alice Cullen right?” She nodded. “I'm Sam Shepard,” He smiled holding his hand out to her.
“Nice to meet you Sam Shepard,” Alice said in her singsong voice totally ignoring his hand.
“Wow,” Sam breathed. “Your voice is really pretty.”
Goddamn sleaze. Exactly the same words he had said to me when he introduced himself.
Alice’s response to this was burst out in a fit of laughter causing everyone who had gotten bored and looked away to look back at us.
“Fine then,” Sam turned and stormed off to rejoin his friends.
“Please don’t tell me he was about to ask me to go to the dance with him,” Alice said trying to stop laughing.
“I'm afraid he was,” Edward chuckled. “And if you said no he was going to ask Bella and if she said no he was going to ask Rose.” He sighed, “Yes Rosalie you could be right.”
She was most likely thinking something like; he kept the best to last knowing her.
Suddenly the siren went off, a loud piercing sound.
We stood and made our way to our next classes
Ok so I decided to post 2 chapters in same night.
Chapter three- The bracelet
I walked into the caf and headed straight to my table.
“Hey,” my new boyfriend Luke grinned up at me as I slid into an empty seat next to him.
“Hey,” I smiled back as he leaned towards me and gave me a quick kiss on my lips.
When my family had first started at Fairbanks high I had sat at a table with them every day for about a week, until I became friends with a couple of the popular girls from my P.E class who had invited me to sit with them. I had been accepted into their group almost immediately.
There were seven of them not including me. Sarah; a blond with hair that reached to the small of her back, Chris –also known as Dopey-; he has dark brown ear length hair and a really cute baby face, Molly; she has dark brown shoulder length curly hair, Jamie; short spiky blond hair, Steph; she had dead straight shoulder length pitch black hair with a fringe that reached just above her eyes, Luke; short brown hair and dimples, and last but not least there was Maddy who had shoulder length dark blond wavy hair. Of course all of them were quite good looking- not as good looking as the Cullen, Hale and Mason siblings though- and popular of course.
Molly and Jamie were together, as were Maddy and Chris. Steph was in a long distance relationship with a guy four years older than her called Billy, Sarah had just broken up with Toby her boyfriend of nearly five years. And of course Luke and I are a couple.
“Wonder who that could be,” Luke muttered to himself as he pulled his mobile out of his pocket.
“Who is it?” I asked whilst examining my perfectly manicured nails.
“Who?” he glanced at me quickly before turning back to his mobile, “oh right. My mum.”
“I’ve never met her.”
“Surely you met her at that charity thing bout a month back,” he sat his phone down on the table and took my left hand between the two of his.
“I only met your father.”
He let go of my hand and picked his phone back up. After a couple of seconds he turned the screen towards me.
“That’s her.” I looked at the picture that was on his screen; it was of a woman about late thirties with long curly brown hair, wearing a long flowery sundress. She had a round chubby face and dimples like Luke’s.
“She looks happy,” I said noticing the smile that stretched across her face.
“Yeah. That was last Christmas. Her parents came over from Australia and her brother and sister, and my sister was there too. She was real happy,” his smile faded and he sighed.
“What’s wrong?” I placed my hand on his thigh.
“I haven’t seen that smile in months,” he sighed again. “Not since her parents died. It was real hard on her. Grandpa died then a week later grandma died.”
“I'm sorry,” I said quietly. I wasn’t really sure what to say.
“Don’t be. I only met them a few times and they never called so I hardly knew them. I felt kinda bad though when everyone was there bawling their eyes out and I couldn’t even shed a tear.”
“The same with me when my mum’s mum died. I met her about twice and then when she died I just couldn’t cry,” I whispered. I was referring to my real mother and she was still sensitive about the topic so I figured if I said it quietly she was less likely to hear unless she was listening to our conversation.
“I’ve never met your mum either. I met your dad when I fractured my wrist and had to go to the hospital. He’s nice your dad.”
“Yeah,” I muttered as I searched for a photo of Esme on my small silver phone.
“Who’s that?” Luke asked as I scrolled past a picture of Jacob.
“Who?” I had been trying not to think bout him too much and I didn’t really want to have to look at him either. After all it was for the best wasn’t it? Oh my god. Did I really just think that? Yeah it was what mum and dad thought was best but not what I thought was best. The rest of the family probably thought it was best as well, especially Rose. I glanced down at the bracelet I always wore as I reluctantly went back to the picture of Jacob.
Jake had made me the bracelet one day when he visited Quil Ateara and the young girl Quil imprinted on, Claire.
I knew that bracelet as well as the back of my hand- maybe better- and me wearing it didn’t really help me to stop thinking about him. It was made up of small brown and white wooden beads on a loop of black elastic. Amongst the wooden beads were three square white beads with colored letters on them. The first bead had a little blue ‘r’, the second an orange ‘n’, and the third was a green ‘j’. When Jake gave it to me he had said, “I will always be there for you.” Then he had leaned in and kissed me gently on the check before whispering in my ear, “R and J forever.”
That day marked the first time I made out with Jacob Black.
“Who is he?” Luke asked again interrupting my thoughts.
“Just a friend from the town a town I used to live in.” I could feel a dull ache deep in my chest. The same feeling I always got when I thought about my wolf boy.
“And nothing happened between you two?” Luke asked suspicion coating his voice.
“No. Nothing happened between us,” I lied as I snatched my phone away from him and continued searching for a photo of my- minus the grand- mother.
“Is that her?” Luke asked when I stopped on a picture of Esme and Carlisle embracing on the couch as they watched Rose let go of Jack’s hand and watched as he sank to the bottom of the Atlantic ocean. They looked so cute together especially as they sat there clinging to each other watching the Titanic- not one of my favorites I hate sad movies-. Carlisle wasn’t actually watching the movie he was more gazing at Esme, looking like an infatuated teenager. And Esme who was watching the movie looked like she was about to cry –not that that was even possible-. Not a sad cry but an oh-my-god-I-am-so-in-love-I-never-want-to-lose-you-cry, crossed with an oh-poor-Rose-how-horrible cry.
It was on of my favorite photos of the two of them.
“Wow she’s one hot mama,” Luke grinned. “I see where you get it from,” he added, patting me on the check.
“Luke I’m adopted,” I reminded him.
“Oh. Right. Hey man,” he aid as Chris and Maddy joined Steph, Luke and I.
“Yo sup dude?” Chris asked knocking his fist against Luke’s. “Ren, Steph,” he extended his fist to the both of us.
“Hey Dopey,” Steph paused in the middle of writing a message- most likely to Billy- to acknowledge him. I just nodded and smiled.
“Hey.” I turned to Maddy as she sat down next to me.
Maddy was probably my out of all of them. She was the easiest to get along with, and she was the only one my family approved of out of all of my friends. And dad said she was the one who liked me the most. Edward didn’t tell me that much about what my group was thinking, mainly because I told him not to, but still that didn’t stop him from telling me of all the ‘vile’ thoughts Luke was thinking when he kissed or touched me.
“Hey how are you?” Maddy smiled at me.
“Tired,” I yawned. “You?”
“Much the same.”
“Awesome. Hey what are you doing this weekend?” I asked trying to hold back another yawn.
“Nothing much. I would ask if you would like to come over but we’re renovating and mum says I can’t have anyone over sorry.”
Oh god she was going to ask to come over to my house wasn’t she. I had only ever been to my friend’s houses none of them had ever been to mine before. I suppose you could say I was scared something bad would happen. That Maddy would see something and totally freak out. I doubt she would tell anyone at school but still I would lose a friend. I don’t think I could handle it.
“Oh cool.” What the hell? What the hell was so cool? I looked at my hands and realised they were shaking. I placed them under my thighs so Maddy wouldn’t notice.
“Yeah. Hey how about-“ No! -“I come over-“ I don’t think so! - “Your house for a change.” Nuh uh! Forget it!
“Um I'm not sure,” I muttered.
I watched as Maddy’s smile slowly faded. “Oh. I just thought that… Well you said the other day you were probably jut going to stay home and well…” She looked as though I had just told her that her mother had been killed in a car crash, which made me feel bad.
I glanced over at my family and could tell they were all listening although Edward was the only one looking at me. “Come here,” he said just loud enough for me to hear.
“But,” Maddy continued quietly, “if you don’t want me to come over that’s fine. I understand. Its ok.”
“Oh Mad of course I want you to come over,” I assured her. “Its just I don’t know if we’re doing anything or not. I’ll just… go see though I spose.”
“Ok,” she said as I stood up.
“Be right back.” I drifted over to my family watching a few heads turn as I walked past like I was some kind of magnet forcing their heads to turn and face me every time I passed too close to them. It wasn’t as bad as the first few weeks when the whole school would stare every time they even caught sight of me or one of my family members. Now they only really stared when I passed and it was mainly only the boys.
“What do I do?” I asked as I reached the table.
“Just let her come over,” Emmett sighed. He looked frustrated for some unknown reason.
“We will be on our best behaviour,” Jasper grinned.
“Don’t worry honey it will be fine,” Edward assured me.
“”I don’t think-“
“She thinks you don’t like her and that you’re too embarrassed to introduce her to us,” Edward said quickly before I could stop him.
I felt an overwhelming sadness fill me. But I do like her, I thought not trusting my voice.
“She doesn’t think so.”
But she… She doesn’t know about … about us.
“It’s ok Ness,” he muttered as I felt a wave of happiness wash over me totally obliterating my sadness.
I glared at Jasper. “Don’t,” I warned.
“Just tell her she can come over honey. I mean what’s the worst that can happen?”
I would rather not think about that,” I said as I turned round and headed back to the table.
“So?” Maddy asked as I sat down.
“Yeah we’re free you can come over,” I smiled at her trying to look as friendly as possible.
“Awesome,” she smiled back.
“How about a sleep over? Or is that out of the question?”
I glanced over at dad who raised an eyebrow nodded and said, “of course.”
“Sure. Ok. Fine. No prob,” I stuttered.
“Sweet tonight or tomorrow night?”
Oh stuff it she’s my best friend and I want to be able to remain friends forever, or at least know that we’re still friends when she dies, and that just wont be possible unless I tell her.
So that’s why instead of saying, “oh I forgot Edward said you could come over but you can’t stay. Sorry,” which is what I wanted to say but I said, “how about both?”
“Yeah course if you want to.”
“Oh ok sounds good to me but will your parents mind?”
“Cool so I’ll come home with you and you can get your stuff. Then I shall show you where I live.”
I was actually pretty excited now that it was over with. We would have fun and try to stay away from my family as much as possible.
“Truth or dare Carlisle?”
“Alice,” Carlisle laughed, “for the hundredth time I’m not playing.”
“Because right now I’m going to work. I will leave you kids to it,” he got up off the couch and headed up the stairs to his and Esme’s room.
“Ok,” Alice said. “Bella truth or dare?”
“Truth,” Bella replied quickly.
“Aw Bella your soooo boring,” Alice complained. “That’s all you ever say.”
“Yeah,” Emmett backed her up, “from now on you are hereby banned from picking truth. Your just scared of taking risks.”
“Risks?” Mum asked. “I have taken plenty of risks than you very much.”
“Oh yeah? Like what?”
“Saying truth is a risk. You never know what someone will ask you, unless of course you’re Edward,” she laughed.
Maddy looked at me questioningly. I shrugged and shook my head pretending not to know what Bella was talking about.
Yesterday when Maddy and I had gotten back to my house she had been really shy and had hardly talked to anyone -which was understandable-, but this morning when I woke up she was already up. I went downstairs and found her in the kitchen with a bowl of cereal having a deep and meaningful conversation about boys and sex with Alice, Rose and Bella. I know right? What the hell?
Rose- “They can be real jerks sometimes.”
Mad- “I’ve already worked that out.”
Bella- “Just don’t throw your life away for men. Especially if they’re-”
Alice- Laughs, “Like you can talk.”
Bella- “I’m just saying if you do decide to have sex and the condom breaks-“
Rose- “That’s of you use one.”
Bella- “Hey how was I supposed to know it was even possible? Anyway like I was saying, safe sex is best.”
Alice- “You weren’t saying that.”
Bella- “No but I decided to. Anyway if you do have sex remember to use a condom. Its not worth throwing your life away for kids or guys.”
Me- Enters kitchen, “gee thanks.”
Bella- “Hey honey.”
Well anyway it was just a strange conversation. Especially when it’s your mother and aunts talking to your best friend. I would kill –not literally- to know how that conversation had started.
And now we were playing truth or dare. Which is nothing new. I mean we quite often played it but never with a human round –especially one that didn’t know our secret- so it was kinda boring because we had to be careful what we said, and no one could come up with any decent dares or truth questions.
Occasionally one of us would slip up –nothing major- and confuse the s*** out of Maddy, for example practically the whole conversation I overheard earlier Maddy had been sitting there silently trying to work out what they were going on about.
“Who was your first crush?” Alice sighed clearly annoyed at being reduced to such boring questions.
“A boy called Keith in third grade. Rose truth or dare?”
“Skull the rest of the slush,” Bella grinned evilly. The slush was a drink we made for a previous dare of Emmett’s containing; chocolate topping, ice-cream, yogurt, strawberries, avocado, milk, tuna, carrot, Milo, raisins and a bunch of other things we found in the cupboards. Once we had blended it it looked like as Jasper put it, “slushy vomit,” so we named it the slush.
“God I hate you,” Rose groaned. She picked up the cup and grimaced before throwing back her head and gulping it down.
“Happy?” She slammed the cup back down on the coffee table and glared playfully at Bella. “Em?”
“Dare,” Emmett grinned at her.
“Go shove your head in the toilet.” We all watched as he stood up still smiling. Rose’s hand shot out grabbing his thick arm and pulling him back down next to her. “Jeez Emmett I was joking. Don’t really do that because if you do I will refuse to kiss you ever again. Instead you can um… Go dance,” Rose looked round before excitedly saying, “on that pole,” she pointed to a wooden banister near the stairs.
“Please tell me your joking about that too Rose,” I groaned.
“Afraid not hon,” she grinned.
I lifted up one of the couch cushions and buried my head under it along with all the spare change, pens, pencils, m&m’s -from mine and Emmett’s m&m war we had a few weeks ago-, and some buttons and waited. And waited until a warm hand grabbed my shoulder and shook me gently. I slowly pulled my head out and saw that Emmett was sitting back down next to Rose, thank god.
”Your no fun Ness,” he said. I reached my hand back under the cushion grabbed a handful of m&m’s and pelted them at him. He leaned to the side just as a few flew past his head missing them but leaning into the path of some more oncoming missiles that ricocheted of his skin like bullets off bullet proof glass.
“Oh god you two not again,” Rose groaned. “I'm not helping clean up this time or taking any of the blame when Esme goes off.” She restrained Emmett’s hand as he started collecting up the m&m’s that had landed near him.
“Me neither,” Bella said shooting Emmett a warning look.
“Fine then. Um,” he looked round the circle deciding who to pick. Maddy was the only one who hadn’t been picked yet. “Madelyn truth or dare?”
“Er. Dare,” She replied looking slightly nervous.
“Emmett no,” I hissed as a grin slowly spread across his face.
“What? I didn’t even say anything yet.”
“No,” I repeated.
“Fine. Well I got nothing else,” he said to Maddy.
“Oh that’s ok,” Maddy replied, “I hate it when it’s my go.”
“You just ask someone then,” Emmett grumbled.
“Ren?” Maddy asked turning to me.
“Truth,” I answered as I tried not to look at Emmett who was staring daggers at me.
“I got nuffin,” she sighed. “Ok then. Who you lovin?”
“Luke duh,” I said maybe a little too quickly.
“Get real honey,” Alice sighed.
My eyes flicked briefly to my wrist before I could stop them. “No one,” I said hoping no one had seen that. But someone had. More than one someone actually.
Before I could even finish what I was saying a growl too low for human ears emanated from Rose. She was on her feet in less than a second and heading up the stairs as fast as her legs would take her.
Luckily Maddy had been watching me the whole time and had missed Rose’s little performance, which had lasted all of one second.
I looked up and saw everyone except Maddy –who was now looking at the spot Rose had just been confused- was staring at me silently.
“I’m sick of this game,” I muttered as I headed to my room which was unfortunately upstairs past Rose’s room.
“What was that all about?” Maddy asked as she ran up the stairs behind me trying to keep up, and oblivious to the situation she had just caused.
“Nothing.” I heard glass shatter as I passed Rosalie’s room followed by swearing.
“It’s quite clear that that wasn’t nothing,” Maddy said clearly not hearing the breaking glass, which I swear would have been quite loud even for human ears.
“I’m going to bed.”
She glanced at her pink Roxy watch, “its only eight thirty though.”
“I'm tired.” I stripped down to my underwear and climbed into my big queen sized bed without another word.
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Chapter five- Overreaction.
“Ok then. Who you lovin?” Renesmee’s human friend asked her.
“Luke duh,” Ness replied quickly. Ugh her human boyfriend whom she quite clearly had no feelings for what so ever. I must admit it was better for her to have no feelings for the boy than to be madly in love with him. He didn’t know our secret, which was good. I don’t think I could handle another stupid mortal wanting to be one of us so soon after getting rid of the last one, who I technically didn’t get rid of. She just got her own way and changed from a stupid mortal to a stupid immortal. I loved Bella –even though I used to hate pretty much anything to do with her- but how could she have wanted this life so bad? To never be able to have children –although Bella decided to do that before she was changed- never growing old and dying living on for ever in an eternal night?
I used to dream about the beautiful fair-haired children I would have. All I ever really wanted was a loving husband who would kiss me when he came home, for the both of us to be able to sit and watch our children sleep, then crawling into bed we would cling to each other like the other would suddenly disappear if we didn’t hold them tight. If I were ordinary looking none of this would have happened. If I was born ordinary I could have married someone I loved like my dearest friend Vera had. But I wasn’t born ordinary and like father had said I was destined to marry someone with wealth. Father used to tell me love didn’t matter when it came to marriage. That it was just a childish fantasy I had, he told me I had to do what was right for the family. And supposedly marrying Royce King was the right thing to do. Little did father know that his beloved daughter would die at the hands of the man he was making her wed, and then that that very man would later die at the hands of his ‘dead’ fiancé.
“Get real honey,” Alice sighed trying to keep the sarcasm from her voice.
“No one,” Ness said her eyes flitting to her left wrist quickly. The wrist with the small bracelet made up of little wooden and square plastic beads with a letter on each of the plastic beads. Letters that spelt out ‘R’, ‘N’, ‘J’. Letters that stood for Renesmee and Jacob.
Jacob? The dog? No! She Can’t! Never!
A low growl ripped through me before I could stop it. I stood and took off up the stairs to my room in one fluent movement.
I sunk to the floor as my bedroom door swung shut behind me and started throwing Emmett’s and my things out of the way so I could lie down on the thick mat in the middle of the room. I could hear Renesmee coming up the stairs her human friend close behind. I should probably apologize to Ness for reacting the way I had but I couldn’t stand the mutt and didn’t want him anywhere near her again. I picked up one of my shoes and threw it out of my way. I looked up as I heard glass shatter.
“Shit,” I muttered when saw all the tiny shards of my huge gilt framed mirror lying all over my bedroom floor. “Holy s***.” I’d had that mirror for so long. My mother bought it for me for my twelfth birthday and after Carlisle changed me I went back to my families mansion and took some of my belongings from my room, the mirror being one of my favorite possessions after my BMW. I buried my face in the mat trying to muffle my dry tearless sobs.
“Emmett go comfort Rose,” I heard Edward mutter from the lounge room. “And make sure she doesn’t break anything else. I'm sure Esme wants the house in one piece when she gets home.” God I could kill him sometimes. I can’t believe Carlisle thought we would make a good couple. Ugh I couldn’t think of anything worse than spending all of eternity wit him. I would willingly light a fire and throw myself into it to put myself out of my misery.
“Ok,” Emmett heard and I heard him slowly make his way to the stairs.
“You ok babe?” He asked as he sat down next to me.
“Yeah. I'm fine. Is she ok?”
“I think so,” he answered instantly knowing who I was talking about. “ She went to bed after you took off…” He drifted off. “What happened to your mirror?”
“A shoe,” I replied simply.
“Yeah. It was in my way so I threw it and it hit the mirror,” my voice cracked which it hadn’t done for so long.
“Aw babe.” He lied down next to me and wrapped his thick muscular arm around my shoulders. “Don’t worry bout it Kay. Ill take it somewhere and get it fixed.”
“Thanks,” my voice cracked again. Was it childish to be so upset over something so insignificant as a broken mirror? I wasn’t superstitious so that had nothing to do with it. I suppose I was still slightly in shock from what I had just witnessed down stairs.
“Hey babe smile I hate seeing you like this.” I just shook my head in response, my face still buried in the mat. “Don’t make me go get Jasper,” he joked.
“Fine,” I turned my head toward him and shot him my biggest smile. He grinned back even though it was so easy to tell he knew my smile was as fake as it could get.
“You wanna go for a run? See if we can catch anything good?”
“Yeah ok.” It would do me good to go for a run. It would get my mind off the things that were upsetting me at the moment.
We both stood and walked to the bedroom window. I caught my reflection in one of the bigger shards of glass as I stood waiting for Emmett to open the window. A few strands of my hair were out of place but I still looked perfect, even in my current state of no make up and un-brushed hair. I really was the most beautiful creature I had ever seen in all of my one hundred and one years.
“Babe you look beautiful as always,” Emmett smiled pausing with one leg out the now wide-open window. “You coming then?” He asked when I still didn’t move.
“Yeah,” I answered as I followed him out into the cool night air.
A/N this chapter contains sexual refrences. Not suitable for people under 15 years.
LOL I just couldn't resist.
Hahaha 15 years. I'm not even 15 yet and I'm the one writing it.
Anyways please enjoy and tell me what you think.
Chapter six- Plans
“Emmett, Carlisle, Jasper and I are going hunting tomorrow,” Edward told me as I climbed out of his car when we arrived at school.
“Is it going to be sunny?” I asked hopefully pausing half in half out of the car. I loved the sun even if it meant my family couldn’t come out. I loved the way it lit everything up and the warmth of it. My skin unlike a normal vampire –because I wasn’t normal- only shone slightly in the sun instead of taking on the full on sparkle that vampires skin had in the sunlight.
“No we just decided we deserved a day off,” he told me. “Plus Alice was planning to get rid of us, something about a girls only weekend I think. Thought it might be safest to get out anyway,” he laughed.
“Yeah that’s probably the smartest thing to do,” I smiled. “You just never know with Alice.” We both laughed.
“Hey Ness,” Luke called out to me from where he was standing a few cars away talking to Jamie and Chris.
“See you later then dad,” I said as I got out of the car and headed over to them.
I inserted myself into the narrow gap between Luke and Jamie and waited for Luke –who had tuned back to the conversation after calling out to me- to notice I was there.
“So how was it?” Jamie asked Chris.
“Hell yeah dude. It was like… Words can’t describe it,” Chris grinned.
“That’s what you always say,” Jamie laughed.
“Well I mean it this time.”
”So she’s good then?” Luke asked.
“She’s pretty good for a first timer although I’ve had way way way better. But I mean its sex how bad can it get?” They all laughed. Lucky Maddy wasn’t here because even if she were here they would still talk about what had happened between her and Chris last night. And Maddy being Maddy wouldn’t tell them to shut up if she didn’t like them talking about her sexual abilities. She was too shy to stand up for herself. And the boys were jerks who couldn’t care less about others feelings.
“So when you gonna get some Lukey boy?” Chris asked.
Exactly my point.
“Or is little Renesmee too frigid?” He grinned at me. I just ignored him.
“Soon boys soon,” Luke smiled at me. I could really rip his head off right now.
“So how far have you two been?” Why was Jamie looking at me like that? It was really creeping me out.
“We’ve only really made out,” Luke sighed and shot me a look that seemed to say, “not for much longer.” “I started touching her one time and she like totally freaked out so I stopped.” “So she is frigid then,” Chris laughed.
“Yeah spose so,” Luke agreed. Jesus Christ am I invisible or something? Am I just imagining that I’m standing right next to them when I’m actually standing at the other end of the lot?
“So you done it before then Ren?” Chris asked me.
“None of your business,” I muttered. They took that as a no, which was true.
“So Luke will be your first time then,” Jamie said. It wasn’t a question but a statement. I might as well deal with Jamie as well when I rip Luke’s head off, save time.
“Ya gotta go out o ya way to make it special for her then Luke,” Chris said trying to keep a straight face.
”Screw special,” Luke said. “Its way easier to go at it in the back of a car or on my dads pool table,” they all laughed and I turned bright red, which was rare for me.
“Why don’t ya wanna do it with Luke Ren?” Jamie asked unexpectedly as he scrutinized my expression.
“Maybe I’m waiting for the right person,” I replied holding my head high. I think I would deal with all three of them while I was at it.
“I’m the right person,” Luke assured me. “We could go do it now sexy,” Luke joked. “I got some condoms in my car so we could skip school and go somewhere. No one would even have to know.” Oh my god he was serious.
“No,” I replied simply as I looked around the parking lot to see if any of my family was within hearing range, but I couldn’t see any of them. I wasn’t checking because I was considering taking Luke up on his offer –because I so wasn’t- but because it would be really awkward and they would also give me s*** about how many times they had told me that Luke was no different to most other boys. That he was just a jerk.
“Aw come on gorgeous,” Luke pleaded.
“No,” I repeated.
“You know you want to.” He wrapped his long arm round my waist and pulled me to him so both of our bodies were pressed right up to each other.
“No I don’t,” I said as I felt his free hand start making its way under the light blue blouse I was wearing.
“Don’t Luke,” I muttered but his hand kept moving further under and higher up.
“I said don’t,” I hissed and shoved him hard backward so he crashed into Jamie and knocked him over.
“Jeez Ren,” Luke called after me as I headed off to my locker, “I was only having a bit of fun.”
“Fuck off,” muttered too quietly for them to hear.
“See you later then babe,” he called out. I just nodded and kept walking. I didn’t really have to worry bout Luke, Jamie and Chris for much longer, I would be out of this hell h*** soon enough. I would make sure of that.
There was only one place I wanted to be right now, and that was in the arms of the one guy I did want to lose my virginity to. I will find a way if it’s the last thing I do. We will be together soon. I’ll find a way.
“Miss Cullen.” If dad was going to be hunting tomorrow I wouldn’t have to be as careful with where my thoughts ventured. Alice’s power didn’t work on me so she wouldn’t see if I decided to go. And it had been a couple of months since that game of truth or dare and Rose had pretty much forgotten about the events of that night. I never wore my bracelet anymore instead I kept it in my pocket or in my bra if I didn’t have a pocket.
So if I did decide to leave it would take everyone a while to work out where I had gone and by the time they did manage to work it out I would be long gone.
“Miss Cullen.” I would have to leave sometime tomorrow at school. It couldn’t be before school because the fearsome warriors weren’t leaving till about lunchtime. Maybe I could go after lunch in fifth period. I had art and Mrs. Constable always falls asleep leaving everyone to do basically what ever they wanted. No one would ask questions if I decided to leave class. No one would wonder why I didn’t come back to class either.
If I crossed a few rivers and what not that would throw my family off my scent for a while and give me longer to get away and think of other alternatives to lead them off my trail.
“Miss Cullen. Please pay attention,” a voice snapped in my ear. I looked up and saw my trig teacher Mr. Wallington towering over me and the whole class staring at me.
“Welcome back,” he glowered as he headed back to the whiteboard. “So miss Cullen what is the answer then?” He asked turning to write on the board.
“Um.” I was desperately reading the notes on the board trying to work out what the question I was supposed to be answering was. I watched as Sarah quickly reached across and deposited a small piece of paper on my desk. I quickly picked it up and read it. “Twenty nine.”
“Minus what?” He still wasn’t facing me so I turned my head slightly and saw Sarah holding up eight fingers.
“Eight,” I replied.
“What minus eight Miss Cullen?”
“Twenty nine minus eight,” I sighed. I swear he Mr. Wallington was out to make his students lives a misery.
“”Equals?” He asked. I had to resist the urge to reply with “equals what.”
Instead like a good girl I said, “Twenty one.” He turned to look at me, and as he opened his mouth I quickly said what I knew he was going to ask me to say, “Twenty nine minus eight equals twenty one.” It was times like these that I wished I could read minds like dad could.
“Please pay attention from now on Renesmee or the next time I wont let you off so easily,” Mr. Wallington said sternly his voice as sharp as… well as sharp as my teeth.
“Something funny?” He asked. Oh s*** did I just laugh out loud? Oops. It wasn’t even that funny.
“Um no just… Trent he was picking his nose again,” I said when I saw Trent the schools biggest and most disgusting geek. Oh and by the way he really was picking his nose.
“Very well. Trent if you are finished digging for gold then please take that finger out of your nostril and go wash your hands.”
So where was I? Oh yeah. Well I could probably steal a car from somewhere but I would have to be careful not to get caught by the cops. If I were caught then I would just end up back in Fairbanks and would have my whole family watching over me like hawks. I would probably get grounded for the next hundred tears, and that would be the end of my social life. Although if the cops were unable to speak then… Oh my god! Did I really just think what I think I jus t thought? Oh god! I did just think what I thought I just thought.
So I will try really really hard to avoid the cops for their sake as much as mine.
It shouldn’t be too hard to find my way back to Forks. I might need a map though, and some spare clothes, maybe some food just in case I can’t find anything to hunt, some money and… I think that’s it. I would pack it all tonight and hide it in the bottom of my school bag where no one would find it.
My friend asked me the same question and all I have to say is that there is quite often an easy part to most sums. That was the easier part and once Mr Wallington stopped talking to Renesmee and she tuned out and started thinking about what she was originally thinking about then the sum continued and got harder. When I wrote this chapter I really wasn't in the mood for getting all technical.
Oh and this story isn't about Jacob. It's about Renesmee and her love for Jacob.
Jake will be coming into the story quite soon.
Malia Blackrose said:
Why would a high school kids be doing questions like twenty nine minus eight??
Barely anyone noticed when I gathered up my things and walked casually out of class. Out of those few that did see me leave no one tried to stop me and no one asked where I was going. Mrs. Constable had been slumped over in her chair for the past five minutes and wouldn’t wake until the bell went in about forty minutes so I had plenty of time.
I was heading for the gym, which was situated on the southeast edge of the school. So long as there was no one hanging around outside the gym I could easily get round the back and disappear into the forest. When I rounded the next corner I would be able to see the gym.
I was about to turn the corner when I heard the distinct click click of the principals stilettos swiftly moving closer.
If I kept walking she would see me and no doubt drag me back to class which would be the end of my chance to get away today, and if I turned around and went back the way I’d just come I would never –unless I ran at vampire speed- make it back to the corner I had just turned and the only hiding spots were inside the few classrooms scattered along the corridor. But entering any of them would mean I would have to explain to the teacher in charge of that class what I was doing.
“And what do you think your doing Renesmee Cullen?” Oops look like I took too long deciding.
“Oh um Mrs. Hathaway I’m um just going to the toilet.” I said the first thing that came to mind hoping she would believe me.
“What class do you have?”
“Is that so?”
“Then why didn’t you use the toilets right next to the art room instead of tromping halfway across the school Renesmee Cullen?” Mrs. Hathaway had this annoying habit of addressing everyone by their first and last names, which really started to get on your nerves after a while. Especially when you got a massive lecture from her.
“There was a massive line and I’m like busting,” I replied hoping she hadn’t just come from there and seen how completely empty the toilets were. “Very well hurry up then, but next time you can wait even if it means you wet yourself,” she said before pushing past me and continuing on her way.
I moved around the corner and waited until I could no longer hear the clicking of her heels before quickly walking round the side of the gym and slipping around the back when I thought the coast was clear.
I stood with my back pressed against the cold brick wall of the gym and watched the way the dim light shone of the wings o f a dragonfly that was flitting round near the edge of the dark damp forest. I noticed how it never went more than a meter into the confines of the trees.
It was like it knew there was lurking about. Just waiting for an unsuspecting victim to into it’s lair. Whoa! Dramatic much?
Thinking about running away was so easy but then when it came time to actually do so I was chickening out.
Now that it was time to go I couldn’t.
I was terrified. Terrified of the things I might encounter, terrified of what my family would think when they realized I was missing, and most of all terrified that Jacob wouldn’t take me back, which was kinda stupid of me to think that. I mean he imprinted on me. He couldn’t just stop wanting me.
Jacob used to always tell me he would be there for me no matter what and right now I really wanted to believe that.
I hadn’t even tried to contact him. It wouldn’t have been that hard to send him a letter or something. But no. That would have been too easy. I could understand if he didn’t want me back.
I wouldn’t blame him and would leave without arguing.
“Is someone there?” Someone coughed from behind one of the three large water tanks I was standing next to and scaring me half to death.
I heard some sticks break as the person stood up. The movement wafted the smell of cigarette smoke toward me.
I just stood and watched as someone stumbled round the corner of the nearest tank. Without giving myself a chance to work out who it was I took off into the forest as fast as my legs would take me.
I ran non-stop for about two hours before I had to stop to catch my breath. The bottom half of me was soaking wet from walking through countless rivers in an attempt to throw them off my scent.
School would finish soon and Alice and Rose would start to wonder where I was. Mum and Esme had both ended up going hunting with the guys. They claimed they both really needed to hunt. Esme really did, her eyes were pitch black. But mum… Well mum just really hates Alice’s idea of fun.
I sank down onto a large rock and pulled my Ipod and a muesli bar out of my bag as I scanned my surroundings.
I was surrounded on all sides by thick trees. It had been slow –even for a vampire, or in my case half vampire- because I constantly had to weave my way through the trees only accelerating when I came to one of the few clearings.
I could faintly hear a few cars off somewhere to my right which was good. There weren’t many cars though which was also good.
I reckon if I were to hitchhike my way to Forks I wouldn’t have to harm anyone.
But right now I just really needed to rest. I was physically and mentally exhausted. Last night I had only gotten about an hours sleep because I was so high on my emotions. Jasper ended up getting suspicious about all the emotions dancing around in my head so I just told him I was excited for the ‘girls only’ weekend which thankfully he seemed to buy.
Plus running for two hours without a break wasn’t really helping. I just really wanted to curl up right here a sleep for a while. But I could only allow myself ten minutes at most before I had to continue on my way.
I put my Ipod on shuffle, ripped open my muesli bar and leaned back resting my back on a large boulder behind me.
I started singing along as You Belong With Me by Taylor Swift came blaring out of my headphones blocking out all of the background noises.
You're on the phone with your girlfriend, She's upset
She's going off about something that you said
She doesn’t get your humour like I do
I'm in the room, its a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn’t like
And she'll never know your story like I do
But she wears short skirts, I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time
If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me
You belong with me
Walking the streets with you in your worn out jeans
I cant help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on the park bench thinking to myself
Hey isn’t this easy?
And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I haven’t seen it in awhile, since she brought you down
You say you find I know you better than that
Hey, Whatcha doing with a girl like that?
She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time
If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me
Standing by, waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that?
You belong with me
You belong with me
Oh I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're about to cry
I know your favourite songs and you tell me about your dreams
I think I know where you belong. I think I know it's with me.
Can't you see that I'm the one who understand you?
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me
Standing by or waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that
You belong with me
You belong with me
Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me
You belong with me
I sighed and slowly climbed to my feet as the song came to an end shoving my things back into my school bag.
I shouldered my bag and started running again.
I’d ran for another two minutes before I’d reached the road; a narrow gravel line that stretched along between the trees as far as I could see to both sides.
I had now been sitting on my jacket by the side of the road for about an hour and no cars had even come past yet. Oh except for one but I’d had to let it go.
Well I couldn’t really come running out of the trees with deer blood all round my mouth and all over my hands I’d probably give the occupants of the car a heart attack.
So I had just ended up finishing a couple of deer, cleaned up in a stream and headed back to wait for another car to come by.
About half an hour later I heard it. The faint sound of a car engine and the crunch of tires on gravel.
Turning my head toward the sound I saw lots of dust and amongst the dust a shiny black Ute.
I packed up my stuff and watched as the Ute quickly advanced on me. I stepped forward closer to the road as the car slowed to a stop in front of me.
“Hey,” I said as a man with short messy blonde hair possibly in his early twenties stuck his head out the driver’s side window.
“Hey,” he replied looking me up and down his eyes lingering for a bit too long on my chest. “What you doin by yourself out in the middle of nowhere kid?”
“I had a fight with my boyfriend.” I hadn’t given much thought to my cover story I had just hoped who ever I got a ride with wouldn’t be too nosey.
“Oh bugger. Anyways… Ya wanna ride?”
“Yeah that would be good thanks.” I walked round and climbed into the cab next to him
“What’s ya name?” He offered one of his big hands to me, which I hesitantly shook.
“Renesmee. But everyone calls me Ness.”
“Renesmee? Well sure aint never heard that one before.”
“Yeah my mum kinda got creative.” I didn’t mention how much I wished that she hadn’t gotten creative and had just named me something simple instead. Or even if she just swapped my fist and middle names round. I mean lots of people had weird middle names. Sarah’s middle name was Millicent, and one guy in my gym classes’ middle name was Evander. Carlie Renesmee Cullen isn’t as bad as Renesmee Carlie Cullen.
“Sweet. Mines Jim. So where ya headed?” I was starting to feel slightly uncomfortable under his penetrating gaze. He wouldn’t stop staring at me.
“Well I’m heading down Seattle for a friends twenty first so I can drop you off on my way past.”
“Oh um yeah that would be good thanks.”
“Yup. We gonna have this massive big piss up. S’ gonna be awesome as. Ya welcome to come if ya want. Could find ya a new man. How bout it?” He gave me a lopsided grin that sent shivers down my spine. Sure he was good looking for a human –even more so than Luke- but I only have eyes for one man.
“I really shouldn’t. I need to get home anyway.”
“Well you got plenty a time to think bout it girl so don stress.” He started the car up and pulled back out into the middle of the road.
“No it’s okay I shouldn’t.”
He grunted and concentrated back on the road. The conversation seemed to be over for the time being so I pulled my mobile out. I had one message from Rose, three messages and a missed call from Alice, one message from Maddy and one from Luke.
I opened Rose’s message first-
Where r u? Hav u got
A detention or summin?
Want us 2 wait? :D
Next I opened the first of Alice’s-
Where are you Ness?
The second one was slightly more desperate-
Where are you? Please
Hurry up! I have planning
Preparations for the
Weekend still to do!!
And the last one even more so-
Why didn’t you pick up
When I called you? Have
You decided to ditch us?
God I wish I could see!!!!
Anyway please don’t! Oh’
Honey it won’t be as fun
With only Rose and me!
I quickly replied-
I am so sorry Al but Mad
is in th middle of a major
crisis! She really needs
me so I gonna hav to give
this weekend a miss sorry!
Oh and I gonna spend th
weekend @ Mads!! TTYL
P.S Tell Rose
I replied to Maddy’s message –which just asked where I’d been in last period- with-
Sorry I wasn’t feelin well!
Can’t talk sorry bout 2 chuck!!
TTYL! LYLAS! Xox
Yes dramatic and somewhat disgusting but still sometimes you just had to do theses things.
I couldn’t be bothered with Luke so I deleted his and waited for the replies.
Oh you kidding! Well…
Another time then. Give
Maddy my sympathy!
Luv ya xoxo P.S Rose
Says bugger plus a
Frowny face :(
I replied, put my phone back into my pocket and waited whilst trying to tune out from the Adam Brand blaring out of the car speakers.
“Oh Ness,” Jake muttered into my hair as he scooped me up into his warm thick arms crushing me to his chest, “I missed you.”
“I love you,” I whispered clinging to him as hot salty tears streamed down my face.
“I love you too! I love you too!” He brushed the tears away gently with his fingers before leaning down and pressing his lips softly to mine once, twice and then kissing me passionately.
That one kiss was everything to me. It showed me that he wanted me the same way that I wanted him.
“I love you Renesmee Cullen.”
“I love you too Jacob Black.”
“I want to spend the rest of my life with you.”
“I thought you would never say that.” This was the perfect reunion. Better than I could have ever dreamt.
“I love you.” Wait! What?
“I am awake Jake.”
“Hey that rhymes,” Jake laughed. But… No… That wasn’t Jake’s laugh. It wasn’t the deep rumble I remembered so well and loved so much. It was too… Well it was… Just… It just wasn’t his laugh.
“Wake up.” It was so strange. I could see his lips moving but the words coming out just didn’t sound right.
“I am,” I insisted.
“No your not.”
“What’s wrong with your voice?”
“Nothing,” he replied as he reached forward grabbed my shoulders and roughly shook me.
My eyes flew open and suddenly I was no longer standing in front of Jake’s house with the sun beating down on us. I was sitting in an unfamiliar car with a stranger grinning down at me.
It took me a second to get my bearings and work out where I was and who the stranger was but once I did I wished I hadnt.
It had all been a dream. Just a stupid dream. I suppose that explains why there was no awkwardness. But it had been perfect.
I glanced at the dashboard clock and saw the numbers 3:02 glowing back at me. It was dark out so it must be AM.
"Welcome back sleeping beauty," Jim laughed.
I felt the sharp stinging in the back of my eyes and my vision started bluring. I squeezed my eyes shut trying to hold back the tears.
"You right?" He asked sounding slightly worried.
I nodded not trusting myself to speak.
"Well sorry to wake you. I really hated too do so cos it sounded like ya were having a real good dream but I just had ta."
Oh god. "Was I talking in my sleep?"
"Yer," He smiled at me. "So who's this Jacob Black guy? He ya boyfriend?"
"I wish," I muttered slightly embarrassed. Talking in my sleep was a habit I had supposedly picked up from mum even though she can't sleep anymore so she can't talk in her sleep. But yeah I inherited it and hated it.
"Well anyways the reason I woke ya was cos I'm gettin pretty drowsy and well... Can you drive?"
"Well you can take over while I get some shut eye."
"Wait." I grabbed his arm as he went to get out of the car. "I don't even have my licence. I'm underage."
"Ah don worry. She's cool. Just wake me if some cops come. Oh and don't crash." He got out into the dark and walked round to my side of the car.
"slide Over," he said as he opened my door . I did as I was told and he climbed in behind me and settled into the seat I had just vacated. Within seconds he was snoring his head off.
"Well," I sighed to myself. This was kind of weird. I did know how to drive. I was an awesome driver. It was just well. This man was letting some kid he hardly even knew drive his car while he slept. It was weird.
Oh well. This way we would get there faster.
I stood on the side of the road absently waving as the Ute slowly disappeared into the horizon. It was almost lunchtime on Saturday and Jim had just dropped me off by the big wooden sign that announced that I had arrived home.
It was strange because normally when I saw that sign I would want to turn around and leave –I used to totally despise Forks- but now I was so glad to be back I could barely contain my excitement.
I was just waiting for Jim to get out of sight so I could take off into the forest.
Jim had been slightly unsure about leaving me on the side of the road. He had insisted on driving me to my house but I’d kindly refused and told him my house wasn’t far. I also told him the walk would give me time to think things over. He’d eventually agreed but still insisted on me coming to his friend’s party, which I had not so kindly refused. I had kinda snapped a bit because I was getting annoyed because he was keeping me from seeing Jake.
I watched as the he turned a corner and disappeared from sight. I could still hear the sound of his engine though as it slowly got fainter.
Well. Here I come Jake.
I turned and ran into the forest.
I could feel all the tiny butterflies fluttering round in my stomach knocking into each other. Wow I had never been this nervous before. I really needed to puke and I didn’t know why.
It didn’t take long to get to La Push or for me to come across the smell of werewolves. Unlike the rest of my family the smell of werewolves didn’t bother me. It was just this faint not entirely unpleasant wet dog smell. It wasn’t the nicest smell in the world but it was bearable. And I had become used to it so it didn’t even bother me anymore.
I had just crossed the boundary that no vampires were allowed to cross. The rest of the wolf pack had agreed to make an exception for me because of the whole Jacob imprinting on me thing so as soon as I crossed that invisible line I felt safer. It wasn’t like I was scared of my family or anything it was just that now they couldn’t reach me.
I could now see the opening in the tree’s just up ahead that would lead me out onto the Black’s front lawn.
Then I was there.
The dim light filtered through the menacing gray clouds onto the lush green lawn. Jacobs house wasn’t much to look at but it had this strange homely feel to it. Unlike most of the massive big houses –if that’s what you would call them- we always lived in.
The werewolf scent was stronger now and from inside I could hear the sound of the TV and running water accompanied with the occasional clink of glass and china.
Here goes then. I took a deep breath and slowly walked up to the front door. Knock. Knock.
The water shut off and I heard soft footsteps as someone came to answer the door.
I stepped back as the door slowly creaked open to reveal Rachel with an annoyed expression that quickly changed to surprise then just as quickly happy.
“Oh my god!” She cried clearly happy to see me. “Wow Ness! Is that really you? Oh My God! Ohmygodohmygodohmygod! Jeez it’s so good to see you! Wow Jake will be so happy your back!” She just stood there for a while talking flat out before throwing her arms around me and hugging me as tight as she could. I was glad I wasn’t fully human because if I were then that hug would no doubt really hurt. “Hey Paul,” She called as she let go of me and leaned back into the house, “come see who’s here! Wow it’s really you,” she said turning back to me slightly more composed.
“Yeah,” I said smiling at her previous enthusiasm, “It’s really me.”
“Oh well would ya look at that! If it aint my old pal Renesmee,” Paul appeared at the doorway and slapped me hard –with enough force that it actually inflicted pain- on the back.
I winced. “Hey Paul.”
“Long time no see,” he said glancing over my shoulder seemingly looking for something or someone.
“Yeah. How are you two?” I asked.
“Good,” Rachel said answering for both of them.
Jake mustn’t be home. Or maybe he was home but he didn’t want to see me so he sent Rachel and Paul to distract me while he snuck out the bathroom window. That would explain why they weren’t inviting me inside.
Oh great! I’m back to theses thoughts again!
“Yeah,” Paul agreed. “Hey Rach invite poor Ness in.” It was like he could read my mind.
“Oh right yeah. Come in. Sorry I was just so happy to see you.”
“It’s fine,” I said as I walked past them into the house.
“Make yourself at home,” Rachel said shutting the door and following me into the lounge room with Paul close behind. “Can I get you anything? We don’t really have much though. Paul’s been over heaps lately,” she joked smiling up at him.
“Love you too babe,” he laughed as he leaned down and kissed her on the lips quickly but passionately.
I always found this loving mushy side of Paul weird and slightly scary.
“No I’m fine thanks Rachel. What ya watching?” I asked as I sat down on the old shabby worn out couch.
“Some movie.” Rachel came over and sat down next to me. “Jake is going to be so happy your back. He should be home soon. Oh and Hayden too.”
“Quil’s cousin. You’re going to love Hayden.”
“Yup. Hays a total legend.”
”More than me?” I asked looking at her with a hurt –well an attempt- look on my face.
“No never Ness,” she replied throwing her arms around me again.
Rachel and I had always gotten along really well. She was like a big sister to me.
“So where’s the rest of your family?” Paul asked.
And so the questions begin.
“So you came by yourself?” Rachel frowned at me, looking like mum does when I do something she doesn’t approve of.
“Yeah. And please don’t give me that look.”
”Sorry. But why?”
”I missed you.”
“What just me?”
“Everyone,” I gestured with my hands around the room meaning the whole of La Push.
“Fair enough. And your parents let you?”
”What is this? Twenty questions or something?” I chuckled.
“Something like that. Although I’m not sure how many- don’t change the subject. They let you come?”
“Yeah,” Rachel raised an eyebrow at me and I knew she wasn’t buying any of it. “Fine no.”
“That’s what I thought. Do they know where you are?”
“Yes.” Up goes the eyebrow. “No.”
“You ran away then?”
“Oh Ness they must be worried sick!”
“Na not until Monday.”
“Still. You need to let them know where you are.”
“No! Rachel you don’t get it!” I was practically screaming at her. “If they know where I am they’re just going to drag me back to Alaska and I’ll probably never see any of you again! They’re trying to make me forget about you and Jacob, Paul, everyone! I can’t go back,” I finished with a sob.
“Oh honey I’m so sorry,” Rachel said softly hugging me again but not as violently as before. But why?”
“I don’t know,” I sobbed as the tears leaked out of my eyes soaking the front of Rachel’s shirt.
I was probably being overly dramatic and making my family seem really horrible but I had to get my message through to her. They must not know where I am!
“Jake was devastated when you all disappeared. He’s been trying to continue on with his life because he didn’t think he would ever see you again no matter how much we told him he would. He searched for you for two months without ever finding any clues as to your whereabouts. He barely slept or ate, he was hardly ever home and he was worrying everyone sick. I’ve never seen him like that Ness. He seems to be better lately but not fully. His smile rarely reaches his eyes and he spends hours just staring out to see like he’s waiting for something. Or someone.”
”I’m soooo sorry,” I moaned. Was she deliberately trying to make me feel bad? Because if she was then it was working.
“Shush Ness. It’s not your fault. It’s not your fault,” she cooed. “Come on stop crying honey.” She wiped my tears away with the back of her hand.”
“Sorry,” I said letting out a small giggle when I saw the wet patch on her shirt.
“It’s okay,” she laughed. “You okay?”
“Yeah,” I said drying off my face, “ I’m fine.”
At some stage Paul had moved to sit in the armchair next to the couch and was now sitting there awkwardly not sure what to do.
“Yeah.” I quite often had mini breakdowns when I got worked up, and it normally didn’t take me long to recover. I didn’t want to be like this when Jake got home.
“Here comes Hayden,” Paul reported sounding slightly grateful for a distraction. He was now standing peering through the curtains out the window.
“Where’s Jake?” Rachel asked.
“Dunno. Can’t see him. Its just Hayden.”
“You’re going to love Hay,” Rachel told me. Again.
I smiled, “so you said.” Rachel sounded like she was very fond of this Hayden guy. If I was Paul I would be keeping a close eye on the two of them.
I heard the front door open and a slightly high pitched feminine sounding voice called out, “anyone home?”
”In here,” Rachel answered.
Maybe Hayden was going through puberty. No one had told me how old he was. He did walk like a girl too, and trust me; it’s not hard to work out who was male and who was female just by the sound of their footsteps. Or maybe he was gay. I had nothing against gay people but it was the only other explanation I could think of. Plus him being gay would explain why Paul was so unfazed about Rachel’s excitement over him.
”Hey.” I turned and saw a girl about my age –well my body’s age- with long straight red hair wearing jeans, a flannelette shirt and bare feet. She’d tied the ends of her shirt into a knot that sat just below her breasts revealing a black tank top. She had a few black smudges on her face but you could still tell she was quite pretty.
I looked around behind her trying to work out who she was and where Hayden was.
Maybe she was Hayden’s girlfriend.
Then she spoke again, “hey Paul. Rachel. Who’s this?”
Hayden this is Ness.” Oh my god I’m so stupid! Hayden wasn’t going through puberty, he wasn’t gay and he walked and talked like a girl because he was a girl. He wasn’t a he. He was a she. Hayden was a she. “And Ness this is Hayden,” Rachel finished.
Hayden’s eyes lit up and she said in an excited voice, “wow! Really?” She held her hand out and I shook it hesitantly. She sounded kinda like a psycho, and smelt like freesias, lily, cucumber, oil and grease. “It’s so nice to finally meet you!”
“I’ve heard so much about you,” she laughed. “Jacob is always talking about you,” I swear her smile faltered for a fraction of a second but I wasn’t quite sure. “He really missed you.”
“Yeah I missed him too.”
She didn’t look much like Quil. Oh actually I think she had a smaller version of his nose.
“Where is Jake?” Paul asked.
“He said he was going to ask Sam something.”
”More like scrounge food off Emily,” Paul said rolling is eyes.
“Yeah knowing Jake,” Rachel agreed. “Plus there’s no food here.”
“I’ve never met a vampire,” Hayden said suddenly. Okay random much.
“Technically I’m not a vampire.” She was really weird. She just wouldn’t stop looking at me strangely. I don’t think I like her.
“Still you go around sucking people dry so technically you are,” she laughed.
Both Rachel and Paul fell silent.
No I definitely don’t like her.
“Actually I do not suck people dry.” I was trying really hard not to lose my cool, cos when I lost my cool I really lost my cool. And let me tell you, it was not pretty.
“Animals, people same thing.” Same thing? Same thing!
“Well-“ walk away! Walk away! “Whatever.” I turned back to the TV, which didn’t really help seeing as there was some girl bashing the crap out of some other girl.
“What’s wrong with her?” Hayden whispered to Rachel. Clearly she also knew nothing about vampires otherwise she would know ho god our hearing was.
“Fucking suck you dry,” I muttered under my breath.
“Um… Nothing… She’s just tired is all… Um… Come help get some drinks,” Rachel said as she dragged Hayden out of the room.
That was one of the good things about Rachel; she always knew when I needed alone time. Or maybe she was just taking Hayden away before I could rip her heart out of her chest and shove it down her throat. Or just leaving Paul in charge of calming me down seeing as he was still sitting in his chair staring at the TV screen blankly.
My moneys on the third.
“So,” Paul said coming over and sinking down next to me on the couch with a sigh. “I take it you don’t like her.”
“Great,” he groaned. Something about the look on his face told me he was hoping I would like her and that it wasn’t good that I didn’t like her.
“Nothing. Hey Jake should be here soon.” I am normally peeved when someone changes the subject at a like that, but in this case I didn’t mind. Besides the new topic was much more interesting.
“Yeah. Do you think he’ll be happy to see me?” I couldn’t help asking.
“What? Does that question somehow have a double meaning? Of course he’ll be god damn happy to see you. He’ll be ecstatic to see you Ness. Rachel told you how long he spent searching for you.” He paused. “Renesmee imprinting doesn’t wear off. Even if that person doesn’t love you back, or if they leave you, Ness even if they were to go out and brutally murder all your family and friends you still love them. Ness Imprinting lasts forever. Jacob’s love for you is forever. It will never die… even if you do.”
“Thanks,” I smiled at him. Paul always had this weird knack at cheering me up.
He punched me in the arm lightly and said, “Chin up.”
“Here comes Jake,” Rachel said as she walked back into the lounge room alone.
Maybe Hayden had left. But who cares about her, he was coming!
I had hoped for it to just be the two of us but I suppose I can’t have everything go my way.
My plan was very simple; when he came over to hug me I would reach up and kiss him on the lips –but not a kiss that said “friends”, anything but that, anything to get the message through- and hopefully he would kiss me back –in a non-friendly way-.
I could now hear his cheerful whistling and the sound of his bare feet padding along the grass toward the house.
But something was off. His whistling was strangely toneless and his footsteps seemed too slow.
I turned in my feet so I was facing the doorway the separated the lounge room from the hallway. Through that door and to the right was the front door. The same door I had come through and the same door that Jacob was now coming through.
I heard and felt my heart speed up as he slowly opened the door.
Slowly he came into view and smiled -the smile wasn’t for me since he hadn’t seen me yet- at the owner of the footsteps that were coming down the hall toward him. God maybe she didn’t leave.
“Hey,” Jake said to her his voice sending chills of delight up my spine. I hadn’t realized until now how much I had missed the sound of his voice.
“Hey,” Hayden replied as she came into view stopping in front of Jake. I couldn’t see her expression because her face was slightly turned away from me and covered by her hair on her right side. “Took your time.”
“Sorry Hun,” he smiled at her. Hun?
Then what Jacob did next was totally unexpected.
I watched in horror as he leaned down and softly pressed his lips to Hayden’s in way that clearly didn’t say “friends”.
It felt as though someone had gotten a rusty nail and slowly hammered it into my heart.
I now had no reason for being here. Here in this house, in this town. In this world even.
“Ness?” I couldn’t even look at him.
Suddenly I felt his big warm arms wrap around me lifting me off the ground and crushing me to his chest. “Oh Nessie! Your back! Oh I missed you so much!”
“Hey Jake,” I muttered. I could feel the sting in the back of my eyes and my vision started to blurr. I fought to hold back my tears.
I couldn’t be here with him. I couldn’t bear to see him happy with her. She had robbed me of the one man I truly loved. I had to leave, and I had to do so now.
I had nowhere to go though. I couldn’t stay here and I couldn’t go back to Fairbanks –well I could but I didn’t want to-. Maybe I could do a dad and go to Italy. No one would stop me because Alice wouldn’t see it happening and none of the pack would even contemplate the fact that that’s where I might have disappeared to.
“Oh Ness honey don’t cry,” Jacob said softly. My thoughts had distracted me and made me forget about trying not to cry.
I buried my face in his chest as the hot salty tears streamed down my face.
I couldn’t leave now. I had gone to too much trouble to get here to be with him. I couldn’t just give up. Somehow I would get rid of Hayden I just needed to be strong.
“I missed you,” I whispered looking up into his face the tears -of joy at seeing him again and the tears of agony at not being able to have him all to myself- rolling down my face.
“As did I,” he beamed at me.
“You missed yourself?” I asked managing a small chuckle.
“Yes always,” he replied smiling. “But mainly I missed you.” He was the same Jacob I remembered, always cracking his extremely lame but none the less funny jokes -well I though they were anyway-.
He pushed me away from him gently and held me at arms length while inspecting me. “You still growing?” He asked.
“Yeah but not as fast anymore. Carlisle says that it will probably stop in a few months.”
”But Nahuel said he didn’t stop growing until he was about seven and your only five.”
“Everyone’s different Jake.” It was so easy to talk to him. It seemed so normal; like I hadn’t been gone for over a year and like he hadn’t just broken my heart.
“Yeah spose so. How’s the rest of the Leeches?” Ugh I hated it when he called vampires things like that.
“Where are they?” Questions again.
“Well mum, dad, Carlisle, Esme, Emmett and Jasper went hunting and Alice and Rosalie are at home. “
“So you came by yourself?”
“Yes I did and no they don’t know where I am and yes I ran away and no I am not going to call them and tell them where I am!”
He frowned. “Um ok.”
Suddenly two hands appeared and wrapped them selves round Jake’s waist barely reaching all the way round.
She just had to ruin everything didn’t she!
I leaned back in and hugged Jake pretending not to see Hayden’s hands. I mashed myself to the front of him and pulled away when I heard her yelp out in pain.
“OW!” She said jumping up and down shaking her hands about like that would magically make them feel better. "OH OUCH!"
“Oh sorry,” I said trying to make my apology sound genuine.
She glared at me and looked up at Jake who was still staring at me seemingly unaware that I had just sandwiched his girlfriend’s hands.
“So how’ve you been?” Jake asked still looking at me.
“Yeah ok I guess,” I replied. “And you?”
”I’ve been better,” he said, a look of sadness briefly crossing his face. “What you been up to?” I reached forward and tentatively placed my hand on his big brown arm.
I used my gift to show him our new house in Fairbanks, my new school, I showed him my fifth birthday party with my family, and then my fifteenth party the next day with my friends, I showed him all my friends, along with a few other random little details, I considered showing him when I ran away but decided against it at the last minute.
"Wow,” he said once I finished. “Sorry I missed your birthday.”
“It’s not your fault,” I replied guiltily.
“Nor is it yours,” he said resting his hand over mine where it still sat on his arm. “I’ll make it up to you though.”
“It’s fine Jake,” I insisted.
“No it’s not Ness. I’ll get you a present soon. And we can have a welcome back party for you. Everyone will be so happy to see you,” he paused for a second frowning to himself. “How long you even here for?”
“Well…” I didn’t really want to leave anymore. I hadn’t seen him in ages and now that he was standing right here with me I had to have him. Hayden wasn’t a problem; I could easily deal with her. And I didn’t mean I was going to kill her or anything. I was just going to split her and Jake up, maybe scare her away or something. “I don’t know-“
“Probably shouldn’t stay long,” Hayden interrupted. “I mean your parents will get worried.”
“I’m old enough to do what I want,” I snapped
“And how old are you exactly?” She asked. “What… Thirteen? Fourteen?” She obviously hadn't been listening very hard to the conversation Jake and I had just had.
“Seven actually,” I said matter-of-factly smiling slightly.
Hayden frowned unsure about whether I was joking or not.
“Your parents have always been overprotective,” Jake said.
“She is young though,” Rachel said speaking up for the first time in a while.
“I’m old enough to make my own decisions and take care of myself,” I protested.
“Course you are Ness,” Jake chuckled ruffling my hair.
I swatted his hand away playfully, “I have told you I don’t know how many times not to do that.”
”Sorry Nessie but you know you love it,” He said attempting seriousness.
“Maybe I do maybe I don’t,” I batted my eyelashes at him revelling in the sound of Hayden’s breathing as it got heavier. Oh sweet sweet revenge. I would have Jake no matter what lengths I had to go to to rid of that b****, and actually now that I think about it it will be quite fun getting rid of her.
Jake laughed. “Oh I missed you Nessie,” he repeated leaning forward and gently hugging me again.
“Ditto,” I said smiling into his chest.
“I love you Ness.” My heart rate picked up and I got butterflies in my stomach. Those were the words I wanted to hear. “Your like the third sister I never had.” My happiness at his first words was gone in an instant. It felt as though he had punched me in the face. It was like my heart had been broken for the second time in a matter of hours.
“Yeah,” I muttered pulling away from him and facing the window where no one could see the tears that were once again rolling down my cheeks.
“Hey, honey what’s the matter?” Jake asked grabbing my shoulder and spinning me back round to face him.
“I’m just happy to see you,” I lied as I once again buried my face in his chest. It wasn’t a complete lie. I mean I was happy to see him but that wasn’t why I was crying.
“I know,” he said holding me tight.
This felt so right. I wanted to stay this way forever. Spend forever in his arms.
“I’m fine now,” I said. The tears had stopped and I was determined to start work immediately on project annihilate Hayden… Or maybe project forever… Obviously I would have to come up with a better name.
I pulled away from Jake once again and grinned up at him. “How would you like to go for a run?” I asked. He smiled at me. “I really need to hunt.”
”I would love to,” he said enthusiastically.
Hayden appeared at Jake’s elbow, “can I come?”
“Oh Hun that’s really not a good idea,” Jake said sympathetically.
“Why?” Hayden asked, her voice sounded really whiny and annoying.
“Because it’s dangerous.” Jake let go of me –much to my dismay- and reached out to hug Hayden –much more to my dismay- in a very intimate way.
“I can take care of myself,” she insisted. Unfortunately –for her- it didn’t work when she tried that line.
“Not when it comes to Ness,” Paul laughed. She’s pretty fierce.”
”I bet I could take her.” Was she serious?
“Don’t underestimate her babe,” Jake said ending the hug but keeping an arm around her waist.
“I could take you with my eyes shut,” I said, “and my hands tied behind my back.” Yeah I was bragging. I know, but I don’t care.
“Sure,” she scoffed.
“You don’t believe me?”
“Oh, of course I do,” she said sarcastically.
“Mm-Hm. Want me to prove it?”
“Go ahead.” Obviously no one had told her anything about vampires seeing as how off guard I caught her with my next move.
I sprang forward knocking her backwards over the arm of the sofa, flipped her over so she was lying on her stomach and perched lightly on her back, pinning her arms behind her with one hand and wrapping my other hand gently around her throat. All this happened in about a second.
I heard and felt Hayden’s heart rate excel and Jake gasped and ran over to us.
“What are you doing?” He demanded.
“Relax Jake,” I said taking my hand away from her neck and releasing her hands but didn’t get off her. “I was just proving myself like she wanted.”
“I thought you were going to bite her,” he admitted.
“Nice to know how much you trust me.” I hadn’t even considered biting her; I was just showing her I wasn’t to be messed with. Besides she had asked for it, and she was basically unharmed, she would probably just get a few bruises tomorrow where my body had hit hers.
“Sorry Ness,” he apologised. “Hey, you right Hay?”
”Yeah,” she grunted, “no not really. Ugh get off of me freak,” she tried to sit up to no avail.
“Sure thing,” I said sweetly as I nimbly sprang off her back.
“You okay?” Jake asked again helping Hayden up.
She grunted again, “yeah whatever.” Whoa someone was in a shitty.
“Come on,” I said to her, “you told me to.”
“Well I didn’t realise your way of proving yourself to people was tackling them and threatening to strangle them,” she growled.
“Hey,” I laughed, “don’t be so dramatic about it.”
“Cheer up babe,” Jake said her patting her on the back.
“Don’t!” She screeched at him.
“S-sorry… Um I didn’t… Well… Um…sorry honey,” Jake stuttered before turning to me, “um… let’s go down the beach before we go hunting Ness. The others are all down there.”
That was so strange, Jake honestly seemed scared for a second.
“Yeah ok,” I agreed just wanting to get away from the psycho. He turned toward the door and I followed shooting Hayden a smile.
“Hey,” Jake stopped suddenly making me run into him, “you three coming?” He asked glancing over his shoulder at the others.
“Sure,” Rachel and Paul both said.
“I just gotta go to the toilet,” Hayden said quietly.
“Okay we’ll wait for you outside.”
“I’m just gonna grab a quick drink of water,” I said as I headed off toward the kitchen.
“We’ll be outside,” Jake repeated.
I wasn’t really getting a drink I just needed to talk to Hayden. I could tell she somehow knew how I felt about Jake and I just needed to have a little chat with her.
I waited till I heard the front door click shut before walking out to the hallway. Hayden was standing there glaring at me.
“You stay away from him,” she said quietly.
“Can’t make me.”
”Sure,” I laughed, “but I thought you would have learned from what happened before, that you can’t beat me.”
“He's mine,” she hissed. “Not your’s. Mine.”
“Not for long.”
“Your wrong for him though,” she said resorting back to her quiet voice. “He deserves someone normal-“
I interrupted, “in case you haven’t noticed, he isn’t normal.”
“He is,” she glared at me again.
“You think turning into a giant wolf is normal?”
“Well FYI, in case you haven’t noticed, you’re not exactly normal yourself.” FYI? She was weird. You only say FYI when your texting someone or emailing them or in movies. I had never actually heard someone say it out loud. I was kind of half expecting for her to come out with, OMG, or LOL or better yet LMAO.
“I know that, plus I never said that I was normal. I can’t be considered normal for a human because I’m half vampire, and I can’t be considered normal for a vampire because I’m half human. I’m half and half. I’m not quite normal,” I said this all pretty fast, it was surprising she actually understood any of it.
“Or you’re just a freak.”
“Freak,” she repeated under her breath.
“Is that the only insult you know?”
She shot me another one of her glares and pushed past me on her way to the door. “I have better things to do than hang around here talking to you.”
“Like spending time with my handsome boyfriend.”
“Oh yeah? Well I believe me and your handsome boyfriend have a bit of catching up to do,” I shot past her as she opened the door and leapt straight down the stairs calling out to Jake to catch me.
“Oh it’s war,” Hayden muttered from the doorway.
I turned in Jake’s arms and glared at her over his shoulder mouthing the words, “bring it.”