I was in my bed in the bedroom of the house the Cullens had built for us. I wanted Jake to come in and hug me and tell me that none of that happened and that it was a dream. BUt then again I didnt want him to come to me for that same reason. I wanted to be left alone, yet I wanted my family to be here with me at the same time. I wish I never had that fight with my dad. It was stupid. I dont even know what came over me. Jealously... The word slid across my mind. It was my own voice, it was someone else. Someone else's voice in my head? Please dont tell me I was getting more of Dad's power and able to read minds. But there was no one in sight to even hear! So, what was it?
I didnt have time to think about it for to long because I heard the front door open. A pair of feet made their way to the steps. They weren't Jake's or the kids' feet. But i didnt know if it was someone else in the family. I waited as teh sound of the footsteps brought them to the door of my bedroom. I held my breath as the doorknob turned. "Who is it?" I screamed. I noticed the person at the door didnt jump or stop turning the knob. They kept getting closer and closer of openign my door. And I couldnt do anything. I had to sit there and do nothing! I had to wait for this mpending doom to fall upon me. The door swung open and all my fears left me. Instead, anger boiled red hot inside of me. I felt exsplosive. "What. The. Hell. Do. You. Want." I asked as coldly as I could.
"I want you to come back and tell you mother why you left. I want you to tell her that you think she doesnt love you. I want YOU to tell your kids why htey wont see their Grandparents anymore. Or their Great Aunts and Great Uncles. I want YOU to go back ot the house and say goodbye to everyone. And that includes Mason. What your thinking is ridiclous. We all love you just as much as we love Mason. Im your father. I would know." Dad finshed. He was turning to go when I stopped him.
"You think you know everything because you're the mind reader. Well I have news for you. You dont know anything. Ive always been your little girl, no matter how old I may look or act. You, and that means all you Cullens and Hales, need to see that i am not that little girl. I dont need to see you guys everyday. I dont care if you like Mason. Hell, I dont even want to see Mason. So leaving doesnt bother me."
"It bothers your children. It also bothers Jake. He hates seeing you like this. He wont say a word to any of us. Not even Carlisle. So you go back there and tell him and everyone else taht you are taking your family and leaving us. I wont think of you any differently." He said calmly.
"You know what I know? I konw that what you just said is a lie. You will think of me differently. YOu will think of me as a traitor or an enemy. Edward, I never belonged here. I shouldnt even be here. There is no logical explanation for ME! I shouldnt exsist." I said, tears springing to my eyes. "I will give my family a choice. They will be able to stay with you and the rest of the family. Or, they can come with me. So i suggest we get back there and tell them what's going on." I said and then I ran. I wanted to try and beat him home. Even though that was impossible.
When I got ot the front door I paused. I knew everyone would be in the living room. This is it. I dont want to do this but Ive got to. I took a deep breath andn pushed the door open. Twelve pairs of eyes glued to my face. Six eyes looked the most scared. The most sad. I didnt know how to start or what to say. I was leaving my family behind. What? All over a kid? This is ridicolous. This must be done if you want your life to work out the way it's supposed to. That voice again! It caught me off guard I wasnt ready for it! I had to do what it said though. That much was true. My intution was saying i could trust it.
"I have little to say here. I have to leave. I shouldnt exsist. Dont argure with me either. I already decided that I am leaving. I dont want anyone of the Cullens or Hale's to come with me. Im asking my family if they want to." I turned to Jake and our children. "You can either stay here with them, or you can come with me." I made sure not to look at my parents, grandparents, and aunts and uncles.
Arabella immeditatly nodded her head. "I'm sorry guys, but I have to stick with my mom." She got up and ran to me. Even though she looked like a 16 year old (as did her brother) she was only a few months. She grew faster than I did. but slower than Mason.
Emphrie was next to talk. "I dont know Mom. I want to go with you, but I dont want to leave Emmett. He's super funny. I'll do whatever Dad does." Emphrie looked like his Dad so much it almost killed me to look at him. I nodded my head and held back tears.
Jake's answer was the one I wasnt sure about. I knew Ara would come with me. That's just how she is. I knew Emphrie would do whatever Jake would do. But I didnt know what Jacob would say.
When I looked at him, he had a surprised/ sad look on his face. "I dont know Nessie."
"Renesmee!" My mom corrected him quietly.
"I want to go with you. That has to be obvious. But, I have to think of Emphrie. I have to think where he will be best. And I think he will be best here. With the pack close by. I am so so sorry Nessie. You have to go without us." He stood up and walked to me. The tears I had been holding back fell. "I'll always love you. And someday we'll find each other again. I'll be waiting for that day. I'll be waiting for you." He finsihed quickly. He leaned in to kiss me, but I pulled out of his arms.
"I have to have a clean break. Dont do that please. I cant take that too." I told him. I looked into his big brown eyes. He leaned his forhead onto mine.
"Ok. Im sorry Nessie. I'll always love you. Dont forget that. Please dont" He begged.
"I promise." I pulled away from him. I grabbed Arabella's hand. "let's go." I said. She nodded. She went out the door before me. I turned around and looked at my old family.
Alice was vampire crying into Jasper's chest. Rose doing her strong face, even though I knew underneath she was breaking. And Grandma Esme was holding onto Granpa Carlisle's hand so tight her already white knuckles looked translucent. Mom was sobbing so hard her shoulders were shaking. Jasper felt my guilt and sent me a shock of reasurrence. Emmett had his arm around Rosalie and he had his face in her beautiful blonde hair. Grandpa Carlisle gave me a small smile when I looked at him. He backed me up no matter what. I looked at Dad. He stared and me and shook his head. He would never get it would he? I looked at Emphrie sitting on the couch next my mom. He had tears rolling down his face. My own tears picked up in pace. I hated seeing my child like that. It was killing me.
I finally looked at Jake still standing in the middle of the room. "Goodbye" I whisphered. Then I turned and ran to catch up with Arabella. My life was now how i nightmared. It was a living hell.