This is my FanFiction novel about the twilight characters ... well in my story James is still alive ... here is just the first chapter, I´m working on the second .. hope you will like it :) Enjoy !!!!
1. chapter: This is how it all began
I am Sue and this is my story. It was almost the end of august, the end of summer holidays. The last week I should stay with my cousin Bella. Forks was the only place, which I hated cause of the rain and the legends behind the whole town, but I used to visit Bella every summer, but I haven´t been there for five years, so I decided to go, although I was a bit scared. Bella has got a new boyfriend called Edward, but she never talks too much about him. I don't know who he is and if he is right for her. On the way to Forks I was thinking about how it would be to meet him. Finally, I have arrived at Forks. My uncle Charlie was waiting for me.
"Hi Sue, we are so happy to have you here again."
I haven'ttell anything more.
"Well, Bella is at home with Edward. They are waiting for you."
"He is in your house?"
I was shocked. Uncle Charlie has never let a stranger in his house.
"Yeah, he is. Why are you so surprised? He is Bella´s boyfriend. I can´t forbid him to be with her."
Charlie didn´t look happy. Something was pestering him.
"Uncle Charlie, is everything alright? You look so broken."
"Everything´s fine Sue. Bella is very happy."
"But you aren´t. Is there something wrong with Edward?"
"No, no. He is a good guy. I think."
The rest of the way to Charlie´s house we were silent. Finally, we stopped in front of Charlie´s house. "We are here."
Nothing has changed, although I haven´t been here for so long. I´ve run into the house, screaming "BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELLS," She was in the living room. I hugged her so tightly.
"Sue is that really you? You´ve changed since we´ve seen each other."
"Well Bella, I grew older."
We talked for a while, but then I´ve realized that we aren´t alone in the room. I´ve looked in the direction, where he was standing. The unnaturally handsome guy. EDWARD. I couldn't tear my eyes away from him. I wasn´t listening to Bella. Just looking at him.
"Sue, are you listening to me?" I suddenly realized that Bella is talking to me again.
For one short moment my eyes caught the eyes of Edward. I quickly looked at Bella.
"I was talking to you Sue, but it seems that you are not interested in my words."
I have turned my back to her. For one moment I´ve felt like, there was just me and Edward in the room, although I see him for the first time. Fortunately uncle Charlie came in the house, so I needn´t to explain the situation to Bella.
"Come Sue, I´ll show you your room."
Without a word I´ve followed uncle Charlie. My room was in the attic. This was the best room in the house. MY ROOMJ.
"We´ll be downstairs if you need anything."
"Thanks uncle Charlie."
Then he left the room. I lied down on the bed and closed my eyes, trying to get some sleep after the long journey, but I still had Edward´s eyes in front of me. How is this possible? I went downstairs trying not to think about Edward, but he was still there.
"Sue I´m so sorry, I haven´t introduced my boyfriend to you."
"Hi, I´m Edward. You must be Sue. Bella has talked so often about you."
"Yes, I´m Sue."
I´ve almost whispered, still looking at the ground.
"She´s a bit shy."
Bella wanted to say something else, but my phone rang. It was my mom, Charlie´s sister.
"Hi mom, I´m glad you´re calling. I´m great."
I tried to talk to her as long as possible, thinking that Edward would leave and it could make me stop thinking about his gold-brown eyes. But when I´ve returned back to the living room after half a hour, he was still there. Suddenly he said goodbye and left. After the dinner, Bella and I went to my room and talked. I love our long meaningful and almost never ending talks.
"Bella, tell me something about Edward. He said that you were talking about me very often, but I don´t know him. How is he? I never imagined that he is so beautiful and attractive."
"Ok, I´ll tell you something about him. He has two step brothers and two step sisters. Brothers named Emmet and Jasper. Sisters, Alice and Rosalie. But I think you should know him on your own. He is very kind and friendly."
"But how can he be so beautiful?" I´ve interrupted her. Bella didn´t answer.
"I´m tired, I´ll go to bed. Good night Sue."
She left the room. I was sitting on the bed and looking at the opened door. I couldn´t get rid of the idea, that Bella hides something. I lied down and tried to fall asleep but with now success, so I went out to walk a bit. I was walking almost for half a hour. Suddenly I was in the forest. Everywhere around me was dark and I couldn´t find the way back to uncle Charlie´s house. I went back to the direction from where I´ve come, but the house wasn´t near. I walked for another twenty minutes and came to a meadow. It was so gorgeous. The moonlight lighted the whole meadow. I saw a shadow in front of me. It seemed familiar and coming slowly closer. He was just few meters apart from me, when the moonlight shined at him. It was Edward. The moonlight made him look more beautiful than he really is. His skin was sparkling like his whole body would be covered with diamonds.
"What are you doing here, Sue? Now, in the night?"
I was speechless. His face in the moonlight was amazing and unforgettable.
"Sue, are you alright?"
Edward came closer. My heart started beating strongly.
Calm down, he is Bella´s boyfriend.
The thought was in my mind. I took a deep breath and said:
"I´ve got lost. Can´t find the way back to Charlie´s house."
I couldn´t look at his face. He would know that something is not alright.
"I´ll take you back."
None of us was talking on the way. When we went out of the forest Edward stopped.
"See, there´s the house. I must go home now."
"Thank you, Edward."
He just smiled at me. The smile was like from a different time, so sweet and calm. I went inside. Bella was waiting for me.
"Where were you?"
She was furious. I´ve never seen her like this before.
"I couldn´t sleep so I went for a walk, but I got lost."
Bella´s sight was telling everything. She didn´t trust me.
"Really? Then what were you doing with Edward?"
I said nothing. I knew, she won´t believe me.
"I took her home. I´ve found her at the meadow."
It was Edward standing behind me. Bella´s countenance suddenly changed.
What is the matter with her? She always trusted me and now? I am here just one day and she is angry. I can imagine that she doesn´t want to lose Edward, but ….How can I feel something for him when I don´t even know him?
Bella was standing in front of me.
"Tell me the truth."
Tears started flowing down my face.
"But Edward told you the truth already. Without him I would be lost in the forest."
I run upstairs to my room. I was crying. Bella, who always was by my side, now she didn't believe me.
"Bella, she was really lost, why don´t you trust her."
"I have a strange feeling, Edward."
"Don´t be afraid. I´ve heard her thoughts. She is worried just about how you changed. That´s all."
I was sitting at the staircase and listened to their talk.
Did he say, he heard my thoughts? He can read minds?
Edward called me. I run quickly into my room, trying not to think about anything. If it´s true that Edward can read minds, I have to pay attention what I am thinking about.
"She has heard us."
"Edward, she won´t stop until she would know the truth. What would we do?"
"Nothing, Bella. I know she can keep the secret. She just wants to know who I am. When she finds out, you have to keep it just between us, you understand me."
Bella was looking in Edward´s eyes. She was scared.
"But what if James or Victoria would find her and hurt her?"
Edward was silent.
"Trust me Bella, I would do everything to keep her safe I promise. I have to go now. Bye Bella and don´t worry."
He smiled at Bella and gave her a warm kiss. Bella was just standing there. She went upstairs to my room and knocked on the door.
"Sue, open the door."
I didn´t move. I didn´t want to hear what she wanted to tell me. She just should let me be. But when I didn´t open the door, Bella stepped in the room.
"I don´t want to talk Bella. I´m tired."
"You´ve heard us, right? You know what we were talking about with Edward."
I was silent. I didn´t want to tell her, that I am afraid to find out the truth about Edward.
"Sue look at me. Please forget everything what you have heard and promise me that you won´t investigate the truth about Edward."
I looked at her. So there was a secret about Edward which I shouldn´t know.
"But why don´t you want me to know the truth?"
"Because you wouldn´t understand that. Look, Edward is just like the other guys in his age." But I wanted to know the truth, although Bella has forbidden investigating. I simply ask Edward.
"Ok, Bella I understand. I promise."
"Thank you, Sue. It really means a lot to me. Good night."
Bella left the room. I couldn´t stop thinking about the mystery ´round Edward. But no idea was good enough to be true. The next day was terrible. It was raining heavily and Bella was in a bad mood. So I took an umbrella and went out. No one asked me where I´m going. Forks is a small town, so there aren´t many places to go. I was just wandering through the streets and saw two girls. They looked like goddesses. I was staring at them. They looked like they weren´t from this time, like the God gave them too much beauty. I went to their direction, not knowing what would I do when I am near. But when I was close I saw their eyes. I saw such eyes before. They´ve had the same gold-brown eyes like Edward. Maybe it´s Alice and Rosalie.
"Edward, Emmett, come on, we don´t have much time."
Edward? Did she just say Edward? That just has to be Rosalie.
I was standing there waiting what would happen. Then they went out of the store. Emmett and Edward.
"Oh, Rose. Relax, we don't need to hurry."
It was really Edward´s step sister. GOSH, they are so beautiful. So perfect.
Suddenly Alice looked my direction.
"Who is that girl?"
"I want to know that too. She is standing there for a couple of minutes staring at us."
It seemed that Rose doesn´t like my present. Edward came to me.
"Hi Sue. What are you doing outside in this terrible weather? You should be at home."
I just looked down. Fortunately it was raining so Edward couldn´t see the tears in my eyes. "Well, Bella is not in a good mood, so I decided to go out. So she needn´t to see me."
"Oh come on Sue, she is not angry anymore. I know it."
Yes you can read minds or something like that. You know everything, I don´t need to tell you. "But you didn´t see her face in the morning. She didn´t say a word to me. I don´t know what´s the matter with her. After you have left she told me, that I should promise her, not wanting to know the truth about you."
Why I´m telling him this? I should keep it secret.
My lips were saying one thing, but my mind was thinking something different.
What? Are you serious?"
Edward´s eyes changed color. They were dark and black.
"Don´t be mad at her Edward. I´ll keep my promise, but only if you won´t tell me the truth." Edward was looking at me. I couldn't read in his eyes. I was good at it, but Edward´s eyes were different.
"Edward, you know that girl?"
It was Rosalie. I´ve almost forgotten, that Edward´s siblings are there.
"Please, let me introduce to you, Sue, Bella´s cousin."
Rose, Alice and Emmett were looking at me.
"Nice to meet you. Bella told us, that you would come."
Great, Bella told everyone about me, but she didn´t tell me anything about the others.
"Sorry Sue, we have to go now. See you. Everything would be just fine."
"But Edward, Sue can come with us, if she doesn´t want to go home already."
Alice was so kind, but what would Bella think if I would go to the Cullen´s house?
"Thank you Alice, but I think I would walk a bit. I need to think. Yesterday was strange and weird. I really don't know what is happening with Bella. She was never so furious when I visited her. She changed a lot, but I don´t know what is bad to know the truth about Edward."
"But then we have to kill you."
Emmett was so close to me. His eyes were evil.
"Emmett stop scaring her. I think that she should know the truth. If Bella knows it, then why can´t she know it, too."
"But how can we be sure that she won´t tell the truth to anybody? Our secret would be lost and we would have to leave Forks."
Rosalie looked at me. She wasn´t sure if she can trust me."
"Rose, she would keep the secret, I know that."
At first Rose didn´t say anything, but then she turned her back to us and silently said:
"Ok, I think we can trust her. But be careful Edward, you know what can happen. She´s a human."
What is bad about being a human?
I really didn´t understand Rosalie´s last sentence.
"Rosalie please, you wouldn´t."
Edward stood in front of me, like he wanted to protect me.
"I´m fine Edward. I´m safe with you and your siblings."
"If you would only know."
I´ve heard sadness in his voice.
"Ok. I think you should go home and I will tell Sue the truth."
"I hope you know what you are doing Edward."
Emmett was standing near Rosalie holding her in his arms.
"I know exactly what I´m doing Emmett."
"We see us later, bye Edward."
The others have left.
Is Edward really going to tell me the truth? Am I prepared to hear it?
"Don´t worry, it´s not that bad."
Edward knew exactly what I am thinking.
"We should go somewhere quiet. I don´t want that anyone else would heard what I´m going to tell you."
Edward took me to the meadow where we´ve met in the night.
"I don´t know how to start. Do you have any questions?"
My mind was going crazy. So many thoughts and I couldn´t say a word.
"Well, I have one. I´ve heard your talk with Bella. You told her that you heard my thoughts. Are you a mind reader or something like that?"
"You´ve got a great memory. But don´t be scared about the truth. Yes, I can read minds. I can´t read every mind apart from Bella´s, but I don´t know why."
"That´s the whole truth? This big secret is just that you can read minds?"
I saw Edward´s sight. He was probably trying to find the best words to tell me what is really going on.
"I´m not a human. It´s so hard to talk about it, because I´m afraid that you would be scared and won´t talk to me, ever."
He is not a human. So what he could be then? So this is what Rosalie has meant with her sentence.
The only thought which was in my mind was that he can be a vampire, but it was impossible. Suddenly, I´ve remembered the legends which I hated so much. The legends about werewolves and the vampires. I´ve stood up. Edward just can´t be a vampire. I can´t imagine that he drinks human´s blood. The shivers covered my whole body. I couldn´t look at him. My heart was beating so loud that I was sure that even Edward can hear it.
"Sue, I´ll explain it to you. Now I know why Bella didn´t want you to know the truth."
"So tell my what are you."
Edward looked into my eyes. It was really hard for him to admit who he really is.
"I´m a vampire."
The sentence was flying in the air.
He´s a vampire. He´s a vampire.
This thought was repeating in my mind over and over again.
"Are you drinking the blood of humans?"
I just need to know that. I couldn´t imagine that he would be such a monster.
"No. Me and my family drink just the blood of animals"
I couldn´t say anything.
Edward´s really a vampire. My craziest thought was true. But how can I come home and do like I would know nothing? Bella would be furious again, but the worst is that she would be angry at Edward as well.
"Sue, you don´t need to tell Bella, that you know the truth. I´ve told you it, because I think you should know it."
"Thank you Edward. But how did you become a vampire? I can´t imagine how can a human become a vampire."
"Well, Carlisle transformed me. I was dying on a Spanish flu. He saved me, although he wouldn´t do this to anybody who had another choice."
It was really hard for him to talk about being a vampire.
"Are you afraid Sue?"
"No, I´m not."
I´m afraid, but I can´t tell him. It would hurt him.
"You are lying to me. Don´t forget that I can read your mind."
He was right, I have forgotten that he can read minds. I was looking at him, waiting what he would do. If he would attack me, the others would know what happened.
"But you won´t hurt me. I can see it in your eyes. I want to believe that you won´t hurt me." Tears started flowing down my face, but for no reason. Edward hugged me. His embrace wasn´t cold like his skin. I´ve felt great. So calm and happy. The fear disappeared.
"No, I won´t hurt you. I want you to behave like I would be a normal guy."
The sudden nearness was strange. I was standing beside Edward trying not to think about anything.
"I´ll try it Edward don´t worry."
It was already dark, so I decided to go home.
"I have to go now. Thank you Edward. I really appreciate that you´ve told me the truth. I won´t tell anybody, not even Bella. I can imagine how her reaction would be like. Bye."
I wanted to go back home but something was holding me back. Was I scared to see Bella again?
"What´s the matter Sue? Should I take you home?"
"No, please. Bella can´t know that I was with you."
I was really scared. Bella would kill me. I was alone with her boyfriend. I really would understand her.
"Come on, Sue. Bella is not that bad."
I started walking silently. Slowly making the distance between me and Edward bigger. I stopped and turned around.
"Edward? Can I ask you another question?"
"How can you stand Bella´s present? I know that you drink the blood of animals, but you´re still a vampire."
Edward looked up to the moon. I wish I would know what he was thinking.
"Well, sometimes is really hard for me to control myself cause Bella doesn't make it any easier for me. I´m afraid that I would hurt her, if I won´t control myself enough. She is tempting me, every time we are together. She doesn't realize what can happen when I lose control."
I saw sadness in Edward´s eyes. He suffered more than he could admit.
How can Bella be so thoughtless. Doesn´t she realize how does it make Edward feel to be with her? If I would be her, I wouldn´t do that. I would do everything to make it easier for him.
The stream of my thoughts was never ending. I just stood there. I didn´t know what to say. How to make Edward feel better.
"Sometimes she gets angry. When her passion is too big to keep it under control. I wish I could love her the way I want to. Like a normal man who don´t need to pay attention by every touch, by every gentle stroke. My strenght is bigger than she can imagine."
I was surprised by Edward´s sincere. But I was still without words. I just need to talk to Bella about her behavior towards Edward. Although she would be furious cause I know the truth. My stay in Forks is coming to end, so I need to tell her what I think.
"Edward I would talk to Bella. I don´t care she would be angry. She just needs to know how it is destroying you. I would be just two another days in Forks, than I have to go back."
"Thank you Sue. But I don´t think she would change in this way. She is still a woman with her needs."
I understood him, but I couldn't let Bella act like that. Suddenly my phone began ringing. It was Bella.
"Sue, where in the hell are you? We were looking for you in the town. Then we´ve met Alice, Rosalie and Emmett. They´ve told us, you are with Edward, but they didn´t know where you went. Are you still with Edward? Don´t try to lie to me."
I was silent. I was convinced that she knows that I´m with Edward, she didn´t need to ask. I´ve looked at Edward. His eyes were saying:
"Tell her the truth. There´s nothing else you can do. She would figure it out although."
I took a deep breath.
"Yes, I´m still with Edward. I tell you everything when I come back."
Bella´s voice was calm.
"Ok, let Edward to bring you home."
After a few short minutes I was back home. Bella was waiting for me. When I stepped into the house Bella hugged me.
"Gosh, Sue we were looking for you the whole day, I´m so glad that you were with Edward and nothing bad happened to you."
I really couldn´t believe what she was saying.
"Yes, it was great to be with him and talk. I know him a bit better now."
I looked down, trying to find the words how to tell Bella that I know the truth about Edward, the whole truth.
"Bella, I need to tell you something. There is a reason why I was with Edward. He told me the whole truth about him. He admitted who he really is. I know you don't want me to know the truth, but I swear I won´t tell anybody. It´s not easy for Edward to talk about being a vampire." Bella was just staring at me and said nothing.
"Well, it was his decision, so I can´t be angry Sue. But don´t think that there are just vampires like Edward and his family. I met the real blood thirsty vampires, who tried to kill me. I couldn´t tell you because I was afraid and I still am that the would hurt you too. Don´t go to the woods alone. It´s too dangerous."
This was the old Bella I so adore.
"Bells, you know that I will go home in two days, so you don´t need to be afraid anymore."
"I wanted to tell you it tomorrow, but I think I have to tell it now. Your mother called and ask my dad if you can stay here."
What? MY MOTHER? She wants to get rid of me.
The tears overflow the edge of my eyes.
"Sue, listen please. My dad said that you have to decide if you want to go back home or stay with us."
"What is her reason for letting me stay here? She knows how much I hate Forks. Not because of the weather but the mystery and the creatures which live here. She wants me to stay here. BUT SHE DOESN´T HAVE A REASON FOR LETTING ME HERE!!!!!"
I shouted from the bottom of my lungs. Bella hugged me again.
"Sue, I know that is hard for you to stay here, but your mother is going to Europe for five years and the time when she is there you should stay with us. She wants to go on her own. She didn´t say anything more. You don´t have the choice. I´m glad that you would stay here, but not by these circumstances."
"Bells can you leave me alone for a while? I just need to absorb what happened now."
"I understand you Sue. When you would need anything, I´m here for you. Good night."
Bella left me alone in the room. I couldn´t stop thinking about I should stay in Forks. This thought was killing me. And there was something else, what I was afraid to admit. The destroying need to be near Edward, although I know that he is forbidden for me. I couldn´t explain this to myself. I tried not to think about Edward, but it was almost impossible. Now I understand why Bella loves him. I´ve tried not to think about anything and fallen asleep. In my dream I went again to the meadow, but this time no one was there. I´ve heard voices but seen no one. I went after the voices. I was almost near when the blood-red eyes looked at me out of the dark. I screamed. When I´ve waken up, I was breathing heavily, my heart was beating unbelievably fast. I couldn´t imagine what could this dream mean. So I didn´t pay attention to it. The next day Bella has waken me up.
"Good morning sunshine. How are you feeling?"
She smiled at me. Obviously she was in a good mood.
"Hi, Bella. I´m fine. I had a weird dream last night. I was at the meadow and from the dark were looking two blood-red eyes at me. I don´t know what can that mean."
Bella looked like she would worry.
"Sue, that can be the vampires. Their eyes become blood-red when they are hungry, well I should say thirsty. Please, keep away from the forest, I beg you Sue."
I said nothing. The woods were my only hideout. Where no one could disturb my thought, where I could be alone.
"Bella, I´m sorry, but you know how much I love the forest and the nature here. I would be careful. I promise."
Bella wasn´t satisfied with my answer.
"Sue, don´t you realize how dangerous it could be for you, when you´d be in the woods alone? You can´t protect yourself, you can´t run away."
I wasn´t scared. I just wanted to be alone, I need to think. How would everything continue. How stop my thought about Edward.
"Bella, I need to be alone now. I go to the meadow, if you would want something, you´d know where I am."
Bella wasn´t happy about my decision.
"Ok, be careful."
Then I´ve left. I walked slowly, assorting my thought. I´ve sat down at the meadow, putting my head in hands.
Damn, I´m stuck here. I just want to know why mom left me here. Why is she going to Europe? I have so many questions but no one can answer them. I feel so alone. So abandoned. So hopeless. Why me? Can even one thing in my life make me happy?
Immersed in my thoughts, I started crying. I just wanted to scream away the pain I was feeling.
I thought, I would come home and everything would be fine. Just one week in Forks and then my usual life. But what happened? I have to stay here, although I don´t want to. What would be now?
My thoughts were unwinding in my mind like a movie, couldn´t stop them. I don´t how long I was already there. Suddenly, I´ve heard a strange noise coming from the distance. The dream came back to my mind. Are that really vampires? I´ve just sat there and didn´t move. I saw a shadow, so there was someone. I was like stoned, not able to run away. But I didn´t feel scared. He wasn´t dangerous. He didn´t move towards me so I didn´t pay attention to him. I´ve immersed me in my thoughts again. But this time, it wasn´t my mom about who I was thinking about.
I just can be near Edward. I know what would happen. With my luck, I would probably fall in love with him, knowing that he loves Bella more than his life, more than everything in this universe. She is his reason of his being. How could a no one like me just think about he would ever love me. Such a silly girl.
The shadow moved slowly closer to me. It was already dark so I couldn´t recognize his face. I just sat there. I didn´t move.
He called me. I would recognize this voice even if I would be blind. He sat down beside me and put his arm around my shoulders.
"Why are you so broken?"
I whispered. We are alone, again. This can be just a coincidence.
"I think I don´t need to tell you. You have heard my thoughts surely."
Edward didn´t look in my eyes, so I was right. He has heard everything.
"I did. I just can't switch the mind reading off. Sometimes I wish I could read Bella´s mind. But your mind is interesting. How old are you Sue?"
"What does my age have in common with my mind? Well, I´m 17, just like Bella."
"You are very adult for your age. But I don´t think that you are a silly girl."
I´ve blushed and turned my face away from him. Gosh, he has heard what I´ve thought about him and Bella.
"Everyone has desires, right?"
"But I can´t long for you Edward. Can you understand that?"
"Sure, I can. But it´s possible that it´s because I´m a vampire. It´s a kind of curse. Everything about me invites you in. My voice, my smell. Everything. But I don´t know why, but it´s easier for me to control myself when I´m with you. I feel more like a human."
Edward didn´t make it any easier for me not to fall in love with him. I looked into his eyes. I couldn´t stop looking. His gold-brown were almost hypnotizing me.
"Maybe it´s because, you love Bella. You don´t feel anything to me."
Edward pushed me closer to him. I could feel his cold skin through my shirt.
"Let me be your friend."
It won´t be easy for me to be just your friend, if you would be doing this.
I was so near him, I was sure, he can hear how was my heart going crazy. He giggled silently. "You remind me at Bella. Her reactions are the same than yours. But I´ll try not to tempt you." "That would be nice."
"Can I ask you something? Does your mother have a reason for letting you here? I haven´t heard everything, what you were thinking."
"No, she doesn´t. I don´t even know, why she didn´t call me and told me it on her own. I feel so alone, abandoned, hopeless."
Tears started running down my face again. I didn´t care that Edward is a vampire. I buried my head in his chest, so he was so close to me. I just needed to feel that I can count on someone and Edward was now near me.
"You´re not alone, Sure. Remember that. Bella is here for you and I´m here for you too. I would try to be the best friend you´ve ever had."
"Thank you Edward. I really appreciate it."
"Would you attend the school here in Forks? I can imagine that you would be mine and Bella´s classmate."
He smiled at me.
"Well, I haven´t thought about it yet. But I think I would just have to. If everything would be fine, I would leave tomorrow. It´s really frustrating. I don´t know anyone here except you and Bella. I don´t know how the others would react when I´ll come like a stranger to their class." "But Sue, it´s the beginning of the year. You would be a new student."
"I would talk about it with uncle Charlie and Bella."
I´ve looked at the clock. It was almost midnight. The time went so fast when I was with Edward.
"I´m sorry Edward, I have to go home. It´s too late. I have been away since morning. I´m a bit tired too, I need some sleep."
"Ok, would you mind if I would go with you and visit Bella?"
"No, but I think you would be sleeping already."
"I know. I love watching her sleeping."
We went to uncle Charlie´s house. I let Edward in. He stopped in front of Bella´s room.
"Won´t you step in?"
Edward opened the door.
Bella wasn´t sleeping. She was probably waiting for me.
"Bella. You should get some sleep."
"I can´t sleep Edward. Sue went to the meadow in the morning and she´s still not at home. I´m worried. Her phone is off."
I´ve looked at my phone. The battery was dead.
"Don´t worry Bella. I´ve just …."
Bella interrupted him.
"Edward, please can you go and see if she is still there? I have a strange feeling."
"I´ve just brought her home. We were together. Please don´t get mad. She is really depressed cause of what is happening. It´s too much for her in a short time. She is standing in the hall."
Bella hugged Edward.
"Thank you. I´m so glad that you were with her. I don´t need to be afraid when you are near her. I feel calmer. Can you please call her in?"
I´ve come in. I´ve heard Bella.
"Do you feel better Sue?"
"Well, no Bells. The pain in my heart won´t vanish easily. It takes time, a lot of time for me, to reconcile to it. This is a new beginning for me. I have to face it. Everything Bells. From one moment I don´t have a mother. It´s like a part of me would die. I feel like something is missing in my inner. There´s not just that mom has left, but something else, but don´t try to figure it out Bella. I need to face it on my own. You are not able to help me."
"How can be so sure Sue? I really can´t help you if you don´t tell me what is happening."
"I´ll tell you it tomorrow. I promise. But promised me that you won´t get furious, ok?"
"Ok. Good night Sue."
Good night Bella. Good night Edward."
I went to my room, thinking what my life would be like now in Forks. With all the dangers, all new people, with Bella, Edward and the need to feel him near, which I couldn´t put out.