look

I look left and I look right but all I see is people dying. 

I look left and I look right and all I see are people taking bullets for me
I look left and I look right and all I want is someone to listen to me.

I look up and all I see are planes and smoke and clouds of dust.
I look up hoping to see some sign that I am not alone.
I look up seeing nothing but empty promises of life in a better world.

I look down to see my shoes that are covered in blood the blood of others.
I look down to see my life passing before me. 

I look down to see the all the crap that I have gone through to get to where I am.

Where am I?
I should know 

But I don’t
back off

Back off all you wont to do is yell and scream.
Back off all you wont to do is yell and scream at me about how I suck .
Back off all you wont to do is yell and scream at me about how I suck and that I need to get my head out of the clouds.

You need to stop yelling and screaming.
You need to stop yelling and screaming at me about how I suck.
You need to stop yelling and screaming at me about how I suck and that I need to get my head out of the clouds.

All I want is to yell and scream.
All I want is to yell and scream right back at you.
All I want is to yell and scream right back at you telling you that I know I suck and that I need to get my head out of the clouds.

All we do is yell and scream.
All we wont to do is to get over this.
All we need to do is finish this.

every time

Every time I hear some one say some thing all I think is way the f*** are you telling me this
Every time I do some thing it either do it are way or you will fail
Every time I wonder why dose this s*** happen to me people say because it you
Every time I think I show people the true me it turns around and blow up in my face
Every time I try to make my self-happy it like why the hell should you be happy
Every time I fell the pain that in my hart I start to cry

Every time you look at me all you see is a sad girl
Every time you hear some say some thing all you think how can even thing that about her
Every time you wont me all you do is push me away
Every time you wonder why is she this way
Every time you think how can I help her get threw this time in her life
Every time you try to help it blow up not in your face it blow up in mine
Every time you fell my pain you just run away

I DONT KNOW

I DON’T KNOW WHO I AM
I DON’T KNOW WHO I AM BECAUSE ALL YOU DO IS PUSH ME DOWN
I DON’T WHO I AM BECAUSE ALL YOU DO IS PUSH ME DOWN WHEN I TRY TO FIGURE IT OUT

I DON’T WONT TO KNOW WHO I AM
I DON’T WONT TO KNOW WHO I AM BECAUSE OF YOU
I DON’T WONT TO KNOW WHO I AM BECAUSE OF YOU AND THE WAY YOU TREAT ME

I DON’T NEED TO KNOW WHO I AM
I DON’T NEED TO KNOW WHO I AM
BECAUSE YOU ARE FAR FROM WHAT I AM
I DON’T NEED TO KNOW WHO I AM
BECAUSE YOU ARE FAR FROM WHAT I AM AND I KNOW NOW WHAT I AM

I AM A KID

I AM A KID IN A ADULT BODY WITH NO CLUE
I AM A KID IN A ADULT BODY WITH NO CLUE WHAT TO DO
I AM A KID IN A ADULT BODY WITH NO CLUE WHAT TO DO
WITH ALL THE CHOOSE
I AM A KID IN A ADULT BODY WITH NO CLUE IN HOW TO ACT
I AM A KID IN A ADULT BODY WITH NO CLUE WHAT IN STORE FOR ME
I AM A KID IN A ADULT BODY WITH NO CLUE IN HOW MUCH TIME LEFT TO GROW UP
I AM A KID IN A ADULT BODY WITH NO CLUE HOW MUCH TIME IS LEFT TO LEARN

I AM A ADULT IN A KID BODY WITH NO CLUE
I AM A ADULT IN A KID BODY WITH NO CLUE WHAT TO DO
I AM A ADULT IN A KID BODY WITH NO CLUE WHAT TO DO WITH ALL THE CHOOSE
I AM A ADULT IN A KID BODY WITH NO CLUE IN HOW TO ACT
I AM A ADULT IN A KID BODY WITH NO CLUE WHAT IN STOR FOR ME
I AM A ADULT IN A KID BODY WITH NO CLUE IN HOW MUCH TIME LEFT TO GROW UP
I AM A ADULT IN A KID BODY WITH NO CLUE HOW MUCH TIME IS LEFT TO LEARN

Life
Why is life hard to deal with?
Why is life hard to deal with when you are down?
Why is life hard to deal with when you are down with no were to go?

Life is hard to deal with
Life is hard to deal with when you are down
Life is hard to deal with when you are down with no were to go

My life is hard to deal with
My life is hard to deal with when I am down
My life is hard to deal with when I am down with no were to go

THE NIGHT

The night is dark
The night is quit
The night is sometimes the best time
The night is young

why this night is dark
why this night is quite
why this night is sometimes the best time
why this night is young

why every night is dark
why every night is quiet
why every night is sometimes the best time
why every night is young

WHY

why are you all screaming at me
why are you all looking at me like I am crazy
why are you all think that I wanting to just scream in pain

why am I screaming in my own head
why am I looking at my self like I am crazy
why am I think that I wanting to scream out in pain

why am I creaming in my own head wonting this pain to stop
why am I looking at my life like I am crazy and the pain of all this crap is getting in the way
why am I think that the pain need to stop but I don’t know how to make it stop.

TO DAY

To day is my last day in this life of pain
To day is my last day feeling the pain I am in
To day is my last day for all to see me in pain
To day is my last day for him to try and keep me in pain

To day is my last day to live this life of pain
To day is my last day to live with feeling this much pain
To day is my last day to live with see in all the pain placed in front of me
To day is my last day to live for him to keep me in pain

to day is the day I say no to the this life of pain
to day is the day I say no to feeling the all this pain
to day is the day I say no to seeing all my pain placed in front of me
to day is the day I say no to him making me feel this pain

ROSES

rose are red
violets are blue
you are my sunshine
and I am your moon

rose are red
violets are blue
you are pure
and I am flawed

rose are red
violets are bleu
you are happy
and I am sad