Bella POV

My story is depressing.

In the past, about two years ago, something happened to me that almost killed me; I fell in love.

He was my first love; my first everything really. I met him in Middle school when I was an 8th grader. You can call it love at fist sigh, I guess. Because that’s how it felt… to me anyway.

We were always together, even if we had to go our separate ways, we would call each other until we had to go to sleep.

It stayed like that for 2 and half years… Then at the beginning of my sophomore year he changed.

He kept saying things about how he likes my body and he kept getting physical with me. But I didn’t care… I was stupid enough not to care. So a week later it was our anniversary. He said he had a surprise for me. He told me he’ll pick me up at 7:30. I was so excited and happy.

But little did I know what’s gonna happen next…

I put on a short dress; I bought in the past and made my self look great. Even my mom was so happy for me. She had told me that I looked beautiful and she even told me that maybe, just maybe he was going to propos. When she said that to me I was shocked. I didn’t even think about that. What if he does? Then I got more nervous.

Tom then picked me up and was on the road…
I asked him to where we were going, but he said it’s a surprise. Then he stopped at his house, and I don’t need to say more.

He said, if I loved him I would do this.

We had already talked about this in the past and I told him that I wanted to wait till marriage. He got mad at me and went to the kitchen.

I just stood there waiting. I was telling my self he just needs time.

He was in there for about 10 minutes, then I said, “Tom you okay?” He then came back almost falling then he caught himself. He had a beer bottle in his hand. Was he drinking?!
I asked him and he started laughing. Then he put the bottle down and grabbed me from the waist. He started to kiss me violently and I could taste the beer. I tried to push him but he was too strong.

I started to push and hit but he didn’t back off. I was so scared. Then I hit him under the belt. He finally let go of me and was on the floor groaning and cussing me off. I grabbed my purse and started to run to the door, and tried to open it but it was locked. I looked back at Tom and he was getting up. I started running to the stairs. I opened the first door I saw, and locked it fast. I was breathing hard.

What am I supposed to do now?

I got my cell from my purse and called my mom.” Mom… mom help me… “I was whispering so he wouldn’t find me. I didn’t realize I was sobbing until I started to talk. “Bella! What’s wrong!?” my mom shouted.

“I’m in Tom’s house, please help me. He’s trying to hurt me…” I said crying. Then I gasped when I heard Tom Beating on the door. “Mom!” I screamed. I didn’t hear her say anything. “Mom…?” I looked at the screen and she was gone. Tom was still screaming. I sat there holding myself and crying.

I couldn’t give up. I told myself to get up!

I looked around the bathroom and there was another door. But I was scared to open it. The door was about to break because of Tom. He was pushing and shouting.

I got up and opened the other door. When I opened it I gasped. Tom was in front of me. He then got my neck and was choking me. He put me down on the bed and got on top of me and was trying to take my dress off. I started to thrash. “Get off of me!” I screamed, trying to push him off. “Just shut up and enjoy. I’ve been waiting a long time for this baby!” He said. “Please don’t do this… Please! Get off me!” then he punched me.

Then I was unconscious…

“Bella, sweetheart…?” I heard my dad say. Dad? What was he doing here? I started to open my eyes but it hurt. I gasped and groaned. “Bella?” I opened my eyes. “Dad?” I looked at him confused. Tears in my eyes.

“Bella!” my mom shouted and came to hug me. I looked at her confused too. “What-what happened?” I stuttered…

They told me everything. The police got there as soon as I was unconscious and took care of Tom. He didn’t do anything to me. Except violently, thrash and punch me. I was out for 3 days in the hospital.

Life goes on…
Even if you are not ready.

As days went by, I kept having nightmares. I would scream and cry. Renee would comfort me; sometimes cry with me and tell me that everything will be ok. But I knew nothing will be ok.

Days then went to weeks and I was still in agony. I would hardly eat or sleep.

I didn’t know what to do.

Three weeks past. One night I when I had a nightmare I couldn’t take it anymore. I got Up and went to the bathroom and opened a pill bottle and threw all the pills in my hand.

But I just stared at it. I was crying a sobbing and staring at; to me was my freedom of agony, the pills.
Then I threw it on the floor and screamed, “Damn it!!” and fell to the floor.

Renee then came “Bella!?” she sat next to me and held me.”Bella” she whispered. I take it she saw the pills.

Then she held my face and made me look at her.
“Bella this needs to stop. I know it’s hard but you have to try.”
“You’re killing yourself for nothing.”
I just cried more.

“Bella look at me”. And I did.
“Tom does not deserve your tears. He doesn’t deserve you period. He hurt you and you should move on.”
“What do you think he’s doing right now huh? Crying for you? Suffering for you? He sure as hell is not!”
“He probably moved on to another girl now. He doesn’t care Bella! You have to understand if he did he wouldn’t have done this to you. A creep like that doesn’t deserve you! YOU UNDERSTAND ME!?”

I froze.

I started to think.

Of course!

Of course! Why didn’t I see or think about this before? I was so hurt and shocked of what he did to me that I didn’t even consider to think about these things. He was my first ever love and because I never had a relationship before, this is how I reacted.

I then blinked a few times. Then I looked at my mom’s confused face.
I sighed.” I’m sleepy. I wanna sleep.” I said. She helped me up and took me to my bed. She tucked me in and I felt the sleepness nights.
Next day I opened my eyes and smiled. I am over the past and looking forward to the future!

I went down stairs and hugged my mom so tight. “I love you mom…” I whispered.

Then I started eating, sleeping, and living my life to the fullest, as I can. But I promised myself that I will never fall or trust a boy ever.

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Today I’m leaving Phoenix.

My mom, and my step-dad Phil, want to travel and see the world for there marriage anniversary. Of course they want to take me, but I couldn’t do that to them. Besides I’m a senior this year and I want to focus on my studies. So, I thought it’s about time I go see and spend time with my dad, Charlie in Washington. I and my dad are very close talking on the phone wise. (Lol) We were really close before him and my mom had a divorce.

“If you need anything, anything at all, just call me. I’ll always have my cell with me.”
“I’ll be here if you need me, okay?” My mom kept telling me. I kept telling her that I’ll be ok, and she didn’t need to worry about me. Of course then we hugged and we both remembered the painful past and started to cry.

I was really sad to leave my mom. I needed her more, than she needed me. But I have to be strong. I have to show her that I’m over the past and excited about the present and future.

I’m on the airplane right now thinking of how things will be with Charlie.
It didn’t hit me that I’m really gonna see my father, until the plane landed. Wow.

I got out of the plane and started searching for him. Then I saw him; my daddy.

I took a deep breath and started walking.

When he saw me coming he started to come towards me. I realized I need his comfort; I started walking faster.
I finally made it to my dad and crashed into him.
My tears were silently coming down my cheeks. “Dad…” I whispered.
“I missed you kiddo.” He said
I chuckled.
He then looked at my face and smiled. “Welcome home, Bella”
I smiled.

On our way home, we had a hour in the car, so we started chatting. About Mom, Phil, Life, School, just random things.

“Hey Bella, I found you a nice car.” Charlie said suddenly.
I looked at him. “Really!? How much?”
“Don’t worry about it I got it for you as a welcome home present.” He said smiling.
“What kind is it? How’s it look?” I asked. Although, I’m not a genius at cars. But if it looks good I like it.
“It’s not brand new, but when I saw it I had to get it for you .Trust me your gonna like it.” He said.

We finally made it to the house. Home.

As I got out my from my dad’s cruiser I looked up to the house. It still looks that same as I remember it.
My dad started to say, “Bella.” I looked to where he was. He was standing beside a small red car. I was so cute. It’s not brand new but it’s decent. I loved it!
I ran to it. “Oh my gosh, Dad! This is perfect!” Then my dad was waving a key in front of me. I took it and opened the car. “Aahhh! This is awesome!”
Then I jumped at my dad. “Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!” I said. Of course he was laughing at me.

We then got in the house and he went upstairs to put my stuff in my room. I started to look around.
Everything looked the same. I then saw pictures of me when I was born and when my parents got married. Then there was a picture of me when I was little.

I sighed and went upstairs.

Dad was coming out of my room went I got up there. I hugged him and said, “Thanks, dad.”
Charlie then left so I can get settled. That’s the good thing about him; he doesn’t hover.
I finished unpacking and it was getting dark so I called mom. If I don’t she’ll probably freak out.
I called her and told her about my trip and how everything is. And I also told her Charlie got me a car. She thought that was really nice.
I then told her to call me instead of me calling her because I didn’t want to interrupt there trip. She argued at first but then she agreed.

I finally hanged up with her and changed to something comfortable.

I went downstairs to see Charlie watching T.V. He saw me and smiled. “You hungry?” he asked
“A bit actually.” I said sheepishly.
“Since you’re big on pizza I got you some. It’s on the counter.” He said.
“Ooh thanks, dad.” I got up and ate. Then I told him I was tired & said goodnight.
I lay down on my bed and started to realize today is Saturday. Meaning Monday is School. Ugh.
I covered my self and started to feel the exhaustion.

I opened my eyes to find my self in my old room. So it wasn’t a dream. I chuckled and got up. I looked outside my window. It was sunny, and it looked nice.
I went to the bathroom a did my thing and changed into something showing less skin. (Bella Sleepwear

I went down and Charlie was reading a paper. “Morning, Dad.”

“Morning.” He said smiling at me.

I got a Pop Tarts and some juice and sat at the table. “Dad I was thinking, since it’s a pretty day out, I wanna go to the beach.”
“Ok. Uh, I need to get some groceries too so why don’t I drop you off.” He said.
“No, its ok I’ll drive. I need to get used to knowing where everything is. Don’t you think, Dad?” I said.
“Yea you sure do.” He said. “Okay you’ll drive behind me and I’ll show you the way to La Push beach.” So that’s what’s the beach is called.
“Sounds good. Let me finish breakfast and go change and I’ll be back in a while. “ I said getting up and grabbing my breakfast. La Push beach here I come.




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