Alex.

I understand you don't want anything to do with me anymore for the past month. Frankly, I don't like myself very much either.. I especially hate my mother though. She's ruined my life. But, this isn't about her right now.

I want you to be happy. Love your life. Live your dream. Go to school this fall, meet Tina and cherish her. Forever.

I'm writing this to show that I am here. Always. When you deleted me, changed your number and told Kasha that I was "whatever", I will admit I cried myself to sleep. Since then, I've been keeping my head up. Im enjoying my grounding. (Which is until I'm 40, btw) and I'm planning to go the Air Force when I graduate highschool.

As for my feelings for you... They will never, ever go away. I still can hear your voicein my head when you say my name, call me "Sweetie" or just laugh..

I will always love you. You'll always be my number one. Please, never forget that and I hope someday you'll call out to me from your heart and forgive me.

-Tashy.

(Ps. You don't need to reply, just please read.)