This is my baby. He has my heart. I don't know what love is, so I cannot say that I'm in love with this boyy, but I do believe that I am in deep "like" with him, ahaaa. No one make me happy like he does. It's different then how other people do it. It's unuiqe(:. And I love it.
He has his wrongs, hah, I think I know that more then anyone. But they're fixable, and I have helped himm fix them to near perfection. He's done things he regrets, and that I regret for him hah, but the past is the past, and unfortuanly we can't do anything to change it.
He's the only one that's made me feel this way, a way you couldn't even begin to Imagine. He just seems to perfect that I'm just waiting for him to break my heat to bits and pieces, but hopeing with all my heart that he won't. I've made him cry, but he's made me cry more without even knowing it.
He hates that I don't say I love you back, but what do you exspect from a girl on her -FIRST- boyfriend? I tought myself to not let my gaurd down for anyone. I put up a wall, and no one could get over it, I never let anyone in. But he busted in like it was nothing. And I hate that I let him.... Because now, he has me in his imbrace, and I can't let goo, no matter how much I want to.
I hate that I can't stay mad at him worth anything. He does very little to make me mad, but it's just the fact that I care for him more then I should. Not that I don't want to care for him, that is not it. It's just that I've putt so much time and thought into telling myself that I wasn't going to feel for anyone the way I feel for him. And I turned around and did exactly what I had been perparing myself not to feel....
I didn't think it was going to be like this when I first started dating you. I vividly remember wating to break up with you time and time again, but I couldn't do it. I didn't know why. But now I doo. And you can't believe how happy I am that I didn't go through with it. I would have been miserable at best.
We have things in common, but more not. But that keeps things interesting. The things that we don't are never important enough to fight about.
Like how he loves cat and not really dogs. And I love dogs and not really cats. Or his horrid taste in music. It's okay, I give you props on some of it though, because sometime it's actually really great. How your not such a great fan of the Twilight Saga, but out up put all my talk and watch it for my sake. Or our age difference, which bothers some people. Come one people, it's only 2 freaking years! Or size difference. 5ft 2in 14years compared to a almost 5ft 9in foot 16years. ( That 5ft 2in is me by the way(: )
But how I feel for you rules over all the things that keep us in different catagories. And that's how it's gonna stay. Even if you do turn around on me, and do something horrid to me. Which I can't see you doing, but you never know. Because I promise you, even if you -DO- think I don't care about you, which I think is insane that you would even think that, I wouldn't be able to let you go even if I tried with eeverything I have. Because your worth more then everything I have. And I would do anything to keep you here.
So, for the sake of my heart, I will care for you no matter what happens.
Even if you parents are succesful in moving to Chicago....
Or if your mom wants you to move back with her to Alaska....
Even then, I promise you'll have me trapped in your light, because trust me Dear, I am blinded my it more then you could even imagine.
And that's why I'm crazy for you, amongst other reasons.
I'm, what I am going to say untill I can think of only ONE word instead of the millions building in my head, as love, my Dear. And your the only one that can touch my heart. As you have done without even trying.
I love you Tyler Schalk.
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