my life is a dassise that people can't help me cear. my life is my suicide that wont leave me alone. my family if a fadding memory. more then that they are a fantisy that i want but cant have. my music is my god that keeps me from cutting. my pain is my heart being broken from every guy that doesnt wont me or that i have dated in my life. i have yeat to find that one guy that will love me for who i am not what they wont me to be.