Now I wasn't orginally going to post this anywhere but then I thought - FANFICTION, perfecto! But then I was thinking, Fanfiction is more for your own story based on the books - WHICH this is not. It's pretty much exactly what is on page 23 - 30 of Breaking Dawn... Just in Edwards thoughts Instead. Just did this for fun... thought anybody who was bored and just wanted something to read would enjoy it. Please, Tell me your thoughts - good or bad.
I also don't know if this will just be taken down and what not for copy infringment - although WHY they would do that I have no idea... It's not like none of you don't know where this has come from.
But just in case: This is not mine!! I mean some of the words were Written by me but the origin of everything came from Stephenie Meyer!! Please, don't take it down :D
2. LONG NIGHT
"I miss you already"
"I don’t need to leave. I can stay...."
Of all the nights my brothers want to drag me away, this is defiantly one I don’t want to leave - not that there are any I do. Nights with Bella were limited - especially these kind. Her human and me resisting. It isn’t as hard as it once was, I actually barely think about it anymore. The burning is still there of course - the thirst, that will never be gone until she’s changed. There’s just this wall now - misting that part of me from this part. Allowing me to lay here with her and resist a different kind of craving, not that I’d have to resist that part of me for very longer either.
If there was just some way I could be positive that it was safe. I’ve been trying to allow myself to go farther and farther in these nights together, like tonight - letting her take my shirt off, which is now on the floor next to us. But it’s still nothing close to what’s to come. If only there were some way I could steer her away from this crazed goal.
I open my eyes now, seeing hers closed and wonder what’s going on behind her eye-lids. Only another reason why reading her mind would be helpful. I could find out a way - maybe even many, to get her to rethink her decision. I could find a loop h*** in her thought process of what she thinks is right about it and make her waver if only for a second. Make her see the real danger....
She opens her eyes too - as if feeling my present gaze, and I lose my thought’s in her eyes - in her. How can one person hold this much attention to another’s mind. Bella - my Bella, the only thing that matters now, that matters ever. My Bella - officially mine tomorrow, in front of everyone else I love. The perfect day, that will result in me getting my everything - forever....
She gazes at me like I’m hers - which I am and will forever be no matter what happens. Her eyes, looking at me like I’m some sort of angel - which is completely ridiculous... she is far more angelic than I will ever be, no matter what I do or she says.
She pulls my face back to her’s and I can’t think about anything but this moment and how I don’t ever want it to end.
"Definitely staying." I murmured against her lips.
"No, no. It’s you bachelor party. You have to go.", She said as her right hand contradicts her words by weaving its way into my hair and pulling me closer with her left against my bare back. How could I ever leave this?
"Bachelor parties are designed for those who are sad to see the passing of their single days. I couldn’t be more eager to have mine behind me. So there’s really no point.", I said as she left a trail of warmth down my throat from my lips.
"True." she breathed, blowing her overly warm - at least to me - breath on my throat.
I close my eyes feeling the way our bodies were embraced - just then she ran her hand down my bare chest, causing me to shudder against her warmth and general touch. I press my mouth to hers again - needing to put my excess of emotion and need into something and try to forget that my shirt is just a foot or two too far away to be able to casually put slightly more distance between us.
Her tongue lightly pressed to my bottom lip and I know I need to stop. That’s usually when I need to - I can’t let her get to far or I’ll only disappoint more when I stop. Plus, It doesn’t help that the farther I go the harder it is to stop. I start to bring myself away from her -
"Wait," she said, gripping on to my shoulders trying to keep me close to her - she kicked one leg out of her blankets and wrapped it around my waist. "Practice makes perfect"
So determined to drive me crazy. I chuckled, "Well, we should be fairly close to perfection by this point, then, shouldn’t we? Have you slept at all in the last month?"
"But this is the dress rehearsal, and we’ve only practiced certain scenes. It’s no time for playing safe"
No time for playing it safe? When would that time be - after I have hurt her? If I still have to stop after this then I can’t even imagine what it’s going to be like in different scenes. Where will I put all this excess emotion and need when were in a scene where I will not only be so far deep into what’s going on to think properly, but there will be virtually no where else to put it on but on her. With my mind not in its right stage and the empowerment of everything - how will I not hurt her in some way? I need to find a way out of this before I do something I regret.
I see something in her eyes and think there may still be time, "Bella...," I whispered.
"Don’t start this again," she said hardly. "A deal is a deal."
She has to see, "I don’t know. It’s too hard to concentrate when you’re like this. I-I can’t think straight. I won’t be able to control myself. You’ll get hurt."
"I’ll be fine" Why does she have to be so stubborn - especially in life threatening situations.
"Shh!" She pressed her lips to mine and it was the perfect distraction, but I couldn’t get back into it as much as I was - I can’t stop thinking about our agreement. Was it wrong of me to agree to something that puts her in danger just so I could have one more chance at being as normal as I can while giving her one more human memory? I promised I’d only try, but I feel as if when the moment comes I won’t be able to stop myself, and then what would happen.
I never really thought she’d agree to marrying me - although I did hope in some miracle she would want to. Which I really think she does, or at least will - when the moment comes or goes she’ll thank me. It’s a moment that will stay with us forever, I just hope she’s not doing this for other reasons than purely wanting to - at least a little.
"How are your feet?" I asked.
"Really? No second thoughts? It’s not too late to change your mind."
"Are you trying to ditch me?" she asked in mock horror.
I chuckled, "Just making sure. I don’t want you to do anything you’re not sure about."
"I’m sure about you. The rest I can live through."
The rest of course meaning the wedding and all that comes with that. What about the horrid pain of the change and the forever pain of thirst that may or may not be powerful enough to let Jasper win the bet and Bella be forever in the helpless arms of regret and sorrow for whomever she’s overcome by? I’m sure we’ll all be able to hold her back together for the first year and keep her away from the public but what if after a few years she comes across a la tue cantante of her own?
But of course that’s not something to hold her back from it, I’ll have to hit harder, "Can you?" I ask quietly. "I don’t mean the wedding - which I am positive you will survive despite your qualms - but afterward... what about Renée, what about Charlie?"
She sighed. "I’ll miss them."
"Angela and Ben and Jessica and Mike." I remind her - hoping one name will make her hesitate.
"I’ll miss my friends, too." she said, even smiling into the darkness. "Especially Mike. Oh, Mike! How will I go on?"
I growled realizing her attempt of a joke that no matter how I’m reassured is a joke still doesn’t sit well on the shoulders of my little foe.
She laughed and then grows serious, "Edward, we’ve been through this and through this. I know it will be hard, but this is what I want. I want you and I want you forever. One lifetime is simply not enough for me."
How weird she can take my feelings for her and make them somehow about me, I still makes me breathless to hear those kinds of words from her mouth for me. I need a new argument because I’m losing this battle fast to her powerful hold on me.
"Frozen forever at eighteen," I whispered - still trying to gather a breath.
"Every woman’s dream come true," She teased.
"Never changing... never moving forward."
"What does that mean?"
I’ve always wondered her thoughts on this but never once had the courage to ask. "Do you remember when we told Charlie we were getting married? And he thought you were... pregnant?"
"And he thought about shooting you," she laughed. "Admit it - for one second, he honestly considered it."
I didn’t answer, trying to gather to guts to just say it.
"I just wish... well, I wish that he’d been right."
"Gah!" She gasped.
"More that there was some way he could have been. That we had that kind of potential. I hate taking that away from you, too."
It took her a minute to answer. "I know what I’m doing."
"How could you know that, Bella? Look at my mother, look at my sister. It’s not as easy a sacrifice as you imagine."
"Esme and Rosalie get by just fine. If it’s a problem later, we can do what Esme did - we’ll adopt."
I sighed, "It’s not right!" I said in a voice I knew was a little too angry. "I don’t want you to have to make sacrifices for me. I want to give you things, not take things away from you. I don’t want to steal your future. If I were human-"
She put her hand over my mouth interrupting me, " You are my future. Now stop moping, or I’m calling your brothers to come and get you. Maybe you need a bachelor party."
"I’m sorry. I am moping aren’t I? Must be the nerves." I’m about to have you as mine forever - how can I not be a little jumpy about the plans to get there.
"Are your feet cold?"
"Not in that sense. I’ve been waiting a century to marry you, Miss Swan. The wedding ceremony is the one thing I can’t wait-"
-hear us now? Come on bro! Lets go enjoy your last night on the prowl! Emmet’s thoughts broke into my mind.
"Oh, for the love of all that’s holy!" I muttered.
Can’t believe your making us come get you! And I thought Emmet was whipped! Jasper teased, even though he was just as ‘whipped’ as Emmet was.
"What’s wrong?" Bella asked.
Come on, the cougars await! Emmet joked with what I could see a big howling laugh running with Jasper through the forest nearing Bella’s.
I gritted my teeth, "You don’t have to call my brothers. Apparently Emmet and Jasper are not going to let me bow out tonight."
Emmet and Jasper are then outside her window finding a way to get our attention, Emmet’s climbing up the tree next to her window with thoughts of using his nails for no good.
She tightened her grasp on me for a moment before releasing, "Have fun."
Emmet scraped his finger nails across her window and Bella shuddered.
"If you don’t send Edward out," Emmet hissed through the window, "we’re coming in after him!"
"Go!" Bella laughed. "Before they break my house."
Yea, Edward! Come out before we huff and puff! Emmet joked
I rolled my eyes and jumped off Bella’s bed - putting on my shirt, before leaning down to kiss her forehead.
"Get to sleep. You’ve got a big day tomorrow."
"Thanks! That’s sure to help me wind down."
"I’ll meet you at the alter"
"I’ll be the one in white." She said with what was a very genuine smile.
I chuckled and said, "Very convincing" before I leaped out the window and landed on Emmet’s back - pulling his arm up over his head and bringing us both crashing toward the ground. Emmet cursed from the scare and got up in full attack mode.
"You better not make him late" Bella whispered from her bedroom.
Your lucky this is your bachelor party.
I smiled at his empty threat, as I saw Jasper jump to her window - planning on nothing but calming her. He’s come a along way.
"Don’t worry, Bella. We’ll get him home in plenty of time."
"Jasper? What do vampires do for bachelor parties? You’re not taking him to a strip club, are you?"
That’s what she’s worrying about right now?
Now that would be a party. Emmet thought to me, winking when I looked over - I just rolled my eyes. "Don’t tell her anything!" Emmet growled up at her, stepping forward. Taking advantage of this sudden power of it being my bachelor party I stepped up behind him, grabbing him by the arms and throwing him into the nearby forest. It looked like he was going to land cleanly in a tree but he ended up missing the branch and landing awkwardly on his shoulders. I laughed quietly.
Oh, your pushing your luck bro. We’ll see who’s tough when I’ve got a grizzly and your stuck with some little elk.
"Relax," Jasper tells Bella, "We Cullen’s have our own version. Just a few mountain lions, a couple of grizzly bears. Pretty much an ordinary night out."
And he can feel my thanks in my emotions for giving her what little relaxation she’ll get tonight. He jumps down and pats me on the back.
"Lets get this party started." he says too low for Bella to hear.
Wohoo! Emmet exclaims from his thoughts, getting a head start on the game.
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