This is the first time I'm sharing my writing in this forum.
The chapter below is a partial draft of chapter 5, where Elvirina and Joshwin spend a few exciting hours together at night. Due to the fact this isn't from the beginning of my there are elements of the mythology you may not understand. The most important thing to understand when you read this is: Joshwin is linked to Elvirina with a bond enabling him to sense her emotions.
A few people from this forum has read the entire book and are excited about it - so I hope a few more will be as well.
I hope you like it. and PS - they are not vampires.
Joshwin helped me out the window into the cool night. It was refreshing to smell the clean air and fill my lungs. We stood at the edge of the roof and Joshwin elegantly jumped off the edge and landed with a quiet thud on the ground below. I followed quickly after him. I hinged my dress in between my legs before I jumped. Having my dress fly over my head and exposing what I wasn't wearing underneath. Not a brilliant idea - like a perfect gentleman he caught me by the waist and I felt his hands slide on the outside of my thin dress.
“Come.” He said and tugged on my hand.
“Here are we going?” I asked even more nervous. I adjusted my eyes to the darkness and all colors shifted to all varieties of gray.
“To the river.” Joshwin gritted his teeth in a nervous twitch before he started running, dodging the trees neatly on the way. I followed behind, with my naked feet feeling the pulse of Earth... or was it my own pulse?
I stopped dumbfounded when we reached our point of destination. The river. Something bright gray or hot white irritated my eyes. I closed them to letting colors return to my sight. There was a plateau that didn't use to be here. It was made from wood and lined with flowers. Big candles rounded the plateau edge. Seventeen candles I counted, one for each year we had lived - I guessed. The candles threw reflections into the surface of the quiet river.
“Did you make this?” I asked stunned.
“I did... for you.” He looked at me excited and nervous at the same time.
“It's beautiful.” I gasped, assessing his work and stepping onto the plateau.
“I'm glad you like it.” He answered proud and relieved. I sat down facing the the water, Joshwin took a seat next to me. I watched him from the corner of my eye, while I tried to keep my hormones in check. I could feel Joshwin's eyes steady on my face and suddenly I was too focused I was still wearing my ceremonial dress and only that dress. I felt naked... and nervous.
“You don't need to be.” He said quietly turning to look over the reflecting water.
“Need to be what?” I asked confused, I turned to watch his beautiful face in the dim light of the candles. His perfection took my breath away. What ever I did to deserve him, I would do a million times over again, no matter the cost.
“Nervous.” He moistened his lip again. Would he please stop doing that, it was making me insane. I wanted to say something. But all I could think was those lips and how they would feel against mine, warm, soft, sweet. Joshwin spoke again, with a victorious smile. “I'll be on my best behavior.” He promised slightly amused. I couldn't help thinking his behavior didn't have to be all good.
“Oh.” I answered leaving my mouth hanging open and feeling a little disappointed.
His eyes burned with intensity in mine. “All I want to say is... I know you're changing. I know your transformation has begun.” I stared just as intently back at him. Still not closing my mouth.
Moments ticked by. “How long have you known?” I asked breathless. This was the conversation I feared.
“A few days. But I wasn't sure until this morning.” I blushed deep read again. I desperately hoped the dim light might hide just a few shades of scarlet.
“I'm sorry about that.” I mumbled. This was third time today I was reminded and it was still embarrassing.
“Why?” He asked puzzled.
“Well... I'm not sure if you've changed yet... and I didn't want to make you... uncomfortable.” I hugged my legs to my chest.
“Well – It wasn't exactly uncomfortable.” He chuckled with gleaming eyes and hesitated. “Do you think I have changed?” He looked at me with eyes that could steal candy from a kid.
“I... I... I think you have.” I stuttered. He moved to his knees, facing me. He cradled my face in his strong hands. I thought it impossible my heart could beat harder, when would it actually explode?
“There's no need to be scared or nervous... or embarrassed.” He tugged my hair behind my ear. The stroke of his finger tips made my skin burn with tingling desire. “I feel that, you know.”
“That's whats embarrassing... you feel every tiny thing and I have no idea how you feel or what you feel.” I bit down hard on my lip to stop blabbering. I breathed slowly and heavily as a mean of control.
“It's... similar.” He smiled smug, then chuckled.
“See... that's not fair.” I complained in a low voice.
“You could just read my mind. Not that I encourage you too.” Joshwin admitted, not so smug this time.
“Really? I always thought you could.” He said very surprised.
“No... Joshwin - when did you change?” I asked serious.
“About a year ago.”
“So mom was right.” I muttered aimed at myself.
“You spoke to your mom about this?”
“Yeah... All of this is really confusing and I didn't know what to do.” I admitted out loud. How could he have gone through this, with nobody noticing?
“So what did she say?” He pushed.
“She told me to make sure you felt the same... before I did anything?” I felt my face going red again. I hoped candle light still wouldn't show just how deeply I blushed.
“And what might that anything be?” He asked suggestively. I hugged my legs tighter to my chest, to try and stop my heart from breaking my ribs with the throbbing. I didn't answer. The night was so calm and quiet, perfectly still. He pried my arms from my legs. I studies his face with unfathomable eyes. “Lie down.” He requested gently.
“Joshwin?” I said in a short breath, tipping over the edge of panic.
“Don't worry, I promised I'd be on my best behavior and I'm going to.” He promised, grinning a little. “But I like it when you say my name.” He chortled and smiled. He held my arms, supporting my weight as I slowly laid down on my back. I couldn't quite control my heavy breathing anymore. I was simply too nervous and too excited.
He placed his hand over my heart and I knew he could feel how hard it was pumping in my chest. I also felt how thin my dress really was, his hand scorching my skin. His shoulder long untidy hair fell into his face as he watched me from above. “Elvirina – you are my true soul mate and it's my job to guard your heart.” He looked like an angle in the flickering candlelight. A tear rolled down the side of my face and soaked into my hair. I didn't cry for the death we has experienced today, I cried for the love that was destined to be between us. Joshwin wiped the tear from my face with his other hand. “Will you give it to me?” He asked softly.
“It's already yours.” I whispered back. My heart kept pounding in my chest, like it was working hard to touch Joshwin's hand on my chest. I laid silently, breathing hard and staring into the alluring eyes of my love. This was just down right erotic.
Finally the limb feeling stopping me, vanished from my hands and I let my fingers twine into his hair. I knotted my hands into it and pulled his face to mine. I finally got to taste him.
I pushed my lips softly against his. Once and then again. His lips moved tenderly against mine. He tasted just as wonderful as I had imagined. I took a firmer grip in his hair and searched a little into him. I felt his breath come a little faster against my skin as the kiss deepened. He parted my lips and gently touched my tongue. The taste of him exploded inside me and it started to bubble urges. Joshwin moved himself against me, laying half way on top me. His breath changed to be every as bit as heavy as mine. A leg move up between my thighs and instinctively I shaped my body around him. I pushed my hips toward him and he took a firm grasp around my waist, holding me close to his perfection. Moving my hands from his hair. I pushed his shirt up, so I could touch the smooth texture of his skin. I heard him groan lightly against my lips as our lips moved warm and urgent against each other and I was getting dizzy. I felt Joshwin grasp at my dress on my back pulling it up, till I felt the lower part of my body being exposed - naked as it was. His hand moved against the back of my thigh further up and over my left back cheek. The intensity inside me flared again.
“Are you naked?” He muttered surprised against my lips, he felt a little panicky to me.
“Sort of.” I admitted between embarrassing pants. To my regret Joshwin's hand moved up my back all the way to my face, instead of further down. He pushed the hair off my face and cradled it with his hand.
“Don't make me break my promise.” He begged. Fire burned in his glorious blue eyes. I didn't want him to touch my face - I wanted his hand to soothe the increasing heat I felt.
“What promise?” I tried to blink the confusion from my eyes, working around the dizziness.
“I promised I would be good. I still intent on being that.” He licked his lip again, though he didn't have too, it was still moist from our kiss.
“You don't have to be.” I requested in a whisper. I listened to my own voice, it didn't sound like mine alt all. It sounded a little hoarse... even sexy. I was ready to hurl my virginity far out the window this very second. In a matter of seconds I had gone from being afraid to even touch his hand, to being ready to tear his clothes off. Huh? What was going on with me?
“I want too.” He said with a caress that moved down my jawline. My heart fell into my shoes (If I was wearing any). I felt rejection wash over my mind, clouding my vision. “Elvie... it's not like that.” He promised.
“Then what is it?” I asked almost in full pout mode.
“I want this too.” He pushed his lips to my neck. He softly licked my skin at the base of my neck.
“What... Heavy make out sessions?” I croaked.
“Yeah.” He grinned and licked my skin again and inhaled exaggerated through his nose. “I can smell it on you, you know?”
“Smell what?” I asked under my breath, He already had my head whirling again.
“How much you want me.” He teased. His breath was loud so close to my ear.
“Again... Not fair.” I complained, silently wishing he would reach up under my dress. He did the opposite, he pulled it down, covering me up again.
“No reason to get ahead of ourselves... We have all the time in the world... Okay?” He said patiently. Rejection creep darkly into the back of my mind. Like a mist slowly covering everything in its haze.
“Okay.” I agreed. I closed my eyes and tried centering my self. I wanted to shake the urging sensation and rejection, so I would be able to have a simple coherent conversation. Joshwin sat up beside me, straightening his clothes back to a descent and presentable fashion.
“Aren't you the least bit nervous?” I asked and rolled to my side, in a cheerful attempt not to pout.
“About us?” He asked back.
“Yeah.” I shrugged.
“No... we know this is right for us.”
He didn't answer the true intention of my question. “I know... we've always know that. But aren't you the least bit nervous about that?” I asked again. He seemed to get the drift of my question.
“Oh...” He moistened his bottom lip again. “You're asking if I'm nervous about making love... with you?” His wet lip and his words jolted through my veins and my heart smashed against my ribs.
“Yes.” I breathed.
He placed his hand over my heart again. All I felt was how dangerously close his hand was to touching something rather personal of mine. His hand moved with up and down with every heavy breath that came an went. “I think...” He paused, evaluating. “I think I'm just as nervous as you are.” All of a sudden his confident eyes changed to show the same fear and excitement I felt.
“Good.” I said triumphantly. That meant he had a vague idea what I was going through.
I hope you made it this far.
I have been working on this for 6 months and it is done and will be posted on my personal blog shortly.
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