"To my lost soul: How?...how could you do that to me? i thought you loved me. You said you loved me. so why? why did you left me? i..I'm soo....please my love, come back to me. please come...i'm begging...come back to me. there's no way i could live through this,, live without you ..OHH..OH..OH..OH my God, give him back to me...."
It was nice Jared wasn't with me at this moment. i couldn't allow him to see this , as i was going in to pieces again. as soon as he left me, i let myself fall as my legs couldn't support my weight anymore. the pain crashed me like, i was being crashed by a car too. i was shaking as if i was being tasered. no one should be allow to see this.
" oh, kate no! don't! you know he didn't want to...you know it's not his false. he loved you and still do, where ever he is. he won't ever do something to hurt you on purpose"
"so why then? why did he leave? he's killing me."
"it's fate. i guess it was he time honey."
it was hard, but hearing all that was helpful even if i knew i shouldn't allow myself to be sinking more farther in to that madness. i continuous my sobbing, leaving myself get conforted by the voice. it couldn't hurt.... for now. the voice was singing now and hearing the song made me feel a little bit better. it was the song my Edward was singing the first time we met;
bad things of jace Everett.
to be continuous
( go listing to the song on youtube if you want to it's awesome lol)